I finally stopped bleeding today. I felt the last clot drop from me while in the loo last night, i didnt dare look.
I was so happy, I had three positive pregnancy tests, I told Jami, he couldnt have been happier. I was on my way to the doctors to get checked out and was headed back to the room and doubled over in pain and started bleeding. I was rushed off to the hospital for an ultrasound, there was nothing. They wouldnt even let me look at the monitor even when I had asked. All they could say was "we're sorry for your loss" and sent me on my way.
I tried to tell Jami. He just doesnt get it. My body killed OUR child, his didnt do it, of course I'm going to blame myself.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
sorry for your lose! i know how hard it must feel as i have had 2 miscarriages and also a stillbirth and think about them everyday and its worse on the birthdays but i now have a daughter to and love her to bits but i will never forget my little angels!!!!
I want my daughter :'(
Please?
It's Mothering Sunday on Sunday.
Another year that I should have got a card & won't.
I love & miss you sooooooooo much, it kills me.
:'( :'(
This is tooooooooo hard. It can't be nearly 6 years since you left.
IT CAN'T :'(
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
its my 1st mothers day without my baby so cant imagine wot it like to have had 6 years, sorry for ur lose!
im always here if you need to talk!!!
*cuddles* I haven't had to suffer each year, as I repressed what happened Until about last year, I stopped repressing other stuff the year before that. Not sure if that makes sense. So makes it even harder to deal with, because it's like 6 years worth of it, all in one go? Thanks for your offer :)
I'm really sorry but just remember mummy loves you sooo much!
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Roxie Hart.
12 weeks then you was gone.
All because of me.
You can;t even begin to imagine how much mummy loves you right now. I miss you so much and want you back. But your in heaven now. And heaven can probaly take much better care of you then I ever could.
Please know mummy did love you hun. I just wasnt ready. And I know losing you was my fault. But ill never forgive myself for it.
Please understand Daddy would have loved you as well. He just wasnt ready either.
I love you with all my heart. But Im going to try and let go now.
I love you so much though.
Love always Mummy Stayci and Daddy Danny.
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
i just had my miscarrage confirmed...it happend naturaly...i just dont know what to feel...i was only 5weeks gone but i felt a bond with its spirit,and know its only a spirit of energy.
''cover things over with pink and glitter makes things 'look'better...''
I try my best not to judge,But to look for the light in every one and the good...
I really miss Isabelle at the moment... not really sure what triggered it off... I think it was because there was a programme on TV last week about premature births, but I didn't even watch it so it can't have been that can it?
could also be that I'm just feeling bad generally right now... I feel that I failed her... my body failed her... my bad decisions failed her...
/Hate:.
Until about last year, I stopped repressing other stuff the year before that. Not sure if that makes sense. So makes it even harder to deal with, because it's like 6 years worth of it, all in one go? Thanks for your offer :)
