criticising/doubting/judging self

[Stellata]

As someone with a mental illness, do you find that you constantly berate yourself for any expression of feelings and needs?
Do you, like me, feel that everything you want or assert should automatically be negated because you're emotionally unwell, and it's not valid like it is with 'normal' people?

NB I don't criticise anyone else with mental illness for this, this is a purely sealed off self about me thing.
I was just wondering if anyone experiences similar in their own responses to themselves...

[Fleurs du Mal]

Hey,

I suffer from depression, but like you I'm always putting myself down & criticising myself for being depressed. I often feel like I don't deserve anything becasue I'm not ''good'' enough for it.

[whirlpools]

Very much so. I'm also convinced that I don't have any capabilities, even though that's totally untrue.
I find myself having to remind myself a hundred times a day that I am capable, and that my needs are reasonable.

[ghosts in the machine]

I do this all the time...

[shadow-light]

kind of... feelings/emotions make me decide that I am weak for not being able to handle things, and wants/needs make me feel that I an selfish as others deserve those things so much more. I gets rediculas at times, I can't do anything unless it's because someone else will benefit, if I do anything that noone but myself benefits from I start to hate myself for being "selfish"


so not the same... but kind of similar I think

[roiben]

I struggle a lot with this

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