Today I have:
Done a load of washing and hung it on the line. Done 3 hours of dogs walks (2 professional and 1 for my own dogs), booked a GP appointment, cooked dinner.
This is not enough according to my boyfriend, and whilst I want to agree with him, the pro-recovery me wants to congratulate myself for what I did manage to achieve.
makedamnsure: That is a whole lot of work you've done there! That takes a whole lot of motivation and awesomeness and you have every right to be proud of accomplishing so much today. :) Go pro-recovery you!
Also:
So sorry for not congratulating people's heroics in 34873594753489 years. I feel a bit guilty only dipping in for the praise today but I'm currently in a big ball of self-pity and woe and need my small achievements validated.
Today I brought myself to answer a question in class and not succumb to my super-silly-social phobia and freeze up like it wanted me to. YOUR EFFORTS TO BLUR MY VISION SHALL NOT PHASE ME, DREADED S.P!
I also managed to pay at the counter for gym, AND ask for a gym card to be issued since I never received one. I didn't go and pick it up at the end though because there was a different person there. DOH ><
I'm about 11 hours ahead of myself here but I could use a little positivity (is that even a word?) right now. As of 8pm this evening, I will have gone a week without smoking at all, even when I had the opportunity and (seemingly) ALL the reasons in the world to do it.
Amy- it sounds like you got loads done, good show! Your boyfriend is a troll >.<
Anna- well done for handing in the forms for uni counselling; that's a really brave thing to do, and I hope you'll find them really helpful :)
Conor- *cheerleads* You can do this! You're so nearly at a week; look how far you've come :)
Emmarrrgh- congratulations on 51 days free and for not using laxatives for two weeks! What a tip top achievement! And I agree with your DBT therapist, I am also very proud of how hard you work ALL the days. Well done for being honest about nomming problems too <3
Holly- well done for answering a question in class! That must of been scary and I hope you felt like a pro once you did it! Well done for talking to the gym people too; ALL the social interaction!
Kia- shit! I forgot about your interview! Well done for going, and I shall text you to find out how it went! Well done for eating lunch also :)
I don't know what to say about me. Um, I'm six and a half months free and I nommed ALL the things yesterday?
ok, everyones usernames seem to have altered since I was last about so won't be doing a multi quote :P but WELL DONE TO ALL!!!
ok heres my thing... today makes it 8 weeks since I last purged! Gotten close a few times but managed to not do it each time by either distracting self for a few hours or (shock horror) talking it through with people!
so ye, assuming I get through to midnight it will be 8 weeks
After 2 months I finally manned up and checked my uni emails,arranged some meetings and sorted out some issues.
Huge weight.x
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
Today I saw my GP again. The therapist I was referred to originally is apparently still off sick so I am now being referred to the CMHT. I am a bit annoyed at having to start again with someone new but I think
I still deserve hero points for going to the GP and trying to get stuff sorted. Especially as I went to the GP on my own.
When I needed help today, instead of crying and woeing about it, I phoned someone at got help.
I'm also 2 weeks cut free, continuing taking meds (they are yet to have a positive effect, but if in 2 more weeks they still haven't the doc will review the dosage) and I'm also waiting for a referral to come through for CBT.
I'm also now just short of 3 months into my srs bsns relationship and loving every second of it!
All in all, things are on the up!
~ SilentBoy
Some people just need a high-five. To the face. With a chair.