The Safe Room

[bobbiwibble]

whats up kj?
and its ok, i know what you mean :( i cant seem to stop eating at the moment :/

[stargazer_x]

Ugh, it sucks. I'm totes about to binge on curly fries. FAIL. But maybe if I'm real lucky I'll choke on one and then all my troubles will be over. :(

[bobbiwibble]

*uhugs*
isnt there something you could eat instead?
binging = mood swings, aside from all the rest!

[recoverprincess]

you know the glades shooping centre
ive won a copertition to see diversity there x

[recoverprincess]

omg i love curly fries

[bobbiwibble]

ooh cool well done! :) what was the competition

[stargazer_x]

They're already in the oven. *facepalm*
Though its not just for me...only meant to make some for the parents as I always have to do their dinner...ended up doing loads for me too.
Ugh. :'(
Flashback and binging in one day. I'll be cutting soon no doubt. :( I can't seem to quit.
I hate myself.

[StillBroken]

I know what you guys mean too!
I binge all time latly. Just to feel super guilty and purge/over exercise after.
Yet another bad thing that I don't need in my life at the moment

[stargazer_x]

Unfortunatly, I have a phobia of being sick so I can never purge. I just binge and get fatter and fatter.
Which is why nobody loves me. :(

[StillBroken]

I would say that not purging is a good thing though. It's a nigthmare when you first get into it. And I still get fatter and fatter too
I am sure people love you, and that no matter what weight you are.

[stargazer_x]

I suppose it is a good thing even if my twisted mind would disagree sometimes. Ugh. I am irriversably messed up.
No some people wont even be seen with me no more. I'm an embarassment. People stare at me funny. :(

[StillBroken]

*hugs*
You're not an embarassment. I bet people don't stare at you funny, you just think they do. I know I do that all the time. Like if I hear someone laugh I just think that they are laughing about me, how ugly I am or something.

[stargazer_x]

*hugs*
But I am though. One time I was in London with some friends and they wanted to go into TopShop and we went in and then they asked me to wait outside because I people were looking.
I had to wait in the rain for 45 minutes.
People are mean.
Though I know what you mean, no matter what, if I hear someone laugh or whatever, I just know it's about me.

[StillBroken]

You are not an embarassment! They are just stupid.
It doesn't sound like very good friends if you ask me.
You deserve so much better, and if they don't see what an amazing person you are. They don't deserve you as their friend. And that would be their loss!
And yes people are mean.

[shadow-light]

They don't sound like very good fiends to me... and what the heck were they doing in there for 45mins? that's AGES

[stargazer_x]

I know, but they're all I have. And even then I don't really see any of my friends anymore. They've all but given up. I'm too 'emo' apparently. =/ So I'm kinda friendless nowadays.

God knows. Trying on clothes and stuff I guess. It was the one on Oxford St and that one is HUGE. But still...it shouldn't take that long. And I know because I checked my phone loads to see how much time had passed.

[shadow-light]

I hate this obsesson people seem to have got with "emo" I remember when there was only 1 emo in the city were I lived now it seems like they call anyone and everyone it

(gad, that made me sound old didn't it? lol)

[stargazer_x]

I know right. If you've got problems or whatever, you're 'emo'. Lame.

And yeah...a little old, haha. Next you'll be talking about all them young hooligans and scaliwags.

[bobbiwibble]

we get called emo
people say, stop ****ing moping everyone got problems you wish you had something to complain about but you dont so you jus whinge
we no like that
we gots stuff to complain bout

[shadow-light]

don't think I have ever been called an emo... used to be called a "goth"... but never emo



I just registered for the river cottage landshare thing :) may get some land to grow plants on!!! (on the allotment list but it's 4 ears long!!!)