Is it possible to have autism of some kind that doesnt show up until your older? I used to be ok with people but then as we all got older, about 9 or 10 i started finding it more difficult to relate to them and know what to say in different situations. Ive got better with it now because ive had more practise and encountered similar situations before, but i do still lack the instinct that everyone else seems to have. Ive also been having trouble with some loud noises, but as it didnt used to be so bad im thinking it might be related to something else. I also do a lot of slightly obsessive routine type things, like separating out my food if it comes mixed up and always having to know whats in it. Ive been referred for a mental health assessment in may, and it may turn out that it can all be traced back to the same source as other problems i have that i dont think can be related to this. But my mum keeps making comments about how 'im ocd' or she thinks im autistic, and although she doesnt seem to know a lot about it (she thought they were the same thing) i kind of wonder if she has a point. I did that autism quotient thing and got 42. I also have trouble with knowing when to stop talking, but overall i manage to function just fine in college and with people. Itnjust takes a little effort.
He was no longer jean valjean but no. 24601 -les miserable
Some of life's mysteries will never be solved, such as why, after spending an entire evening listenong to Bach, do I find myself humming "the birdie song".......
I am reaching, but i fall, and the stars are black and cold, as i stare into the void of a world that cannot hold- les miserables
as far as i know from my training, you can't suddenly develop it, but you may have had it all along, and through experiences it could be made worse, such as anxiety, breakdowns, stress all sorts..
why dont you see what you get back from the MHT
Hope your ok ..
Try not to worry to much xx
Thanks. It doesnt really matter to me, because i manage just fine, except what my mum said. Im afraid she'd look at me differently, and i dont paeticularly like it when she's right about stuff like that because then she thinks she is next tie something pops up. Like the time shendecided i might have an ed, which thankfully didnt last long
He was no longer jean valjean but no. 24601 -les miserable
Some of life's mysteries will never be solved, such as why, after spending an entire evening listenong to Bach, do I find myself humming "the birdie song".......
I am reaching, but i fall, and the stars are black and cold, as i stare into the void of a world that cannot hold- les miserables
Sorry for not posting and offering support, but I am really pissed off with myself right now because my revision is not working at all.
To the people on this thread: do you find that you can learn your favourite subject really well (I actually know a fair bit verbatim from one of my Psychopharmacology books) but that other subjects are really hard to learn anything of at all? I am struggling so much with Physiology.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Sorry for not posting and offering support, but I am really pissed off with myself right now because my revision is not working at all.
To the people on this thread: do you find that you can learn your favourite subject really well (I actually know a fair bit verbatim from one of my Psychopharmacology books) but that other subjects are really hard to learn anything of at all? I am struggling so much with Physiology.
Oh my God ... YES.
I am actually kind of envious that your special interest is pharmacology because you can get a degree in that, it's useful, highly academic.
My special interest? Spongebob freakin' Squarepants. I know we can't exactly help what our special interest is, it just happens, but seriously, I think I got the short straw with Spongebob. I have spreadsheets full of facts and figures, graphs, lists, pictures of every food product that has ever had a Spongebob tie-in ... I can write pages of character analysis, compare and contrast episodes, form logical and balanced arguments. But only for Spongebob. Any other topic, and I'm just not interested.
So ... do I win the prize for having the most useless special interest?
Special interests can be really fun though, whatever they are.
I have an obsession about train routes/timetables as well, so if I never make it into research (I doubt I will anyway) then I will work at a major train station :)
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
i feel bad for being angry with him because, "it's not his fault, c, it's his asperger's," but it's hard. when my brother just pushes me and pushes me until i'm screaming at him because he just doesn't understand when to stop, or when he decides to just ignore me completely certain days for no reason, which hurts. sometimes, it's hard to remember he has asperger's, and he's not just being a jerk.
^ It is hard to deal with situations like that. I'm sorry you have to go through that.
I had severe behavioural problems as a child and I feel guilty for having physically and mentally hurt several people.
I am not sure how to advise, sorry.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Hello all, I don't know if any of you watched the show on BBC 1 last night about autisim...It was really interesting to watch so thought I would share.
Here is a link to the BBC iplayer (I don't know if people in the US ect can watch, sorry)
^ thank you. I have downloaded it on BBC iPlayer Desktop; it expires on the 20th of May so I'm saving it for after my exams. Although tbh I may end up watching it sooner because it sounds too interesting to postpone.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
i feel bad for being angry with him because, "it's not his fault, c, it's his asperger's," but it's hard. when my brother just pushes me and pushes me until i'm screaming at him because he just doesn't understand when to stop, or when he decides to just ignore me completely certain days for no reason, which hurts. sometimes, it's hard to remember he has asperger's, and he's not just being a jerk.
It is really hard to distinguish what is the person from what is the "monster". I have a younger sister with severe autism, she is nonverbal and has a lot of inappropriate behaviors. Some of my first memories of my childhood are from my sister biting me or attacking my parents and being unable to do anything to stop her. It finally got to a point when she started growing into puberty and getting bigger that it wasn't safe for herself or my parents or I as she was attacking us daily and we didn't want to get police involved so she was sent away to special school/institution.
Long story short, it's hard.. as much as you want to feel mad and hurt (which you deserve the right to be able to feel those feelings even though it really is no ones fault), just remember it isn't in ANYBODY's control and nobody wants you to feel that way, especially your brother, he just isn't able to convey his feelings and thoughts in the best way sometimes.
I had severe behavioural problems as a child and I feel guilty for having physically and mentally hurt several people.
I did too. I regret it everyday how much i hurt my mom. i hurt her both physcially and mentally too. I know she has forgiven me but i don't feel any less guilty.
Do not adjust your mind, there is a fault in reality
I did too. I regret it everyday how much i hurt my mom. i hurt her both physcially and mentally too. I know she has forgiven me but i don't feel any less guilty.
I'm sorry to hear that. I'm glad she forgave you. I regret things I did too to many people. I was kicked out of nursery (and put in a disciplinary one) because I smashed a wooden chair by hitting the teacher with it while having a meltdown. I am not happy with what I did at all but I was three years old so I cannot remember the event myself (my dad told me this).
When I was in year 8 I was forced to go to the sports lessons (I had been bunking off most of them because I hated team sports), I first had to play netball. I have motor skills issues so I suppose that was the reason why I couldn't catch a ball. But when I was forced into being something-attack in netball, I was really stressed out. Suddenly I had a ball in my hands and had no idea how I'd caught it. Then some girl rushed to me and started blocking me. I have serious personal space issues and I cannot cope with physical contact. I started getting really agitated but she ignored me and got even closer. I slapped her across the face. I didn't do it voluntarily, it was like a reflex. I realised what I had done only a few seconds afterwards. The teacher yelled at me and I freaked out. She told me that I have to go back to the school (the sports field wasn't in the school) after the lesson and wait for her outside the staff room. I was so agitated that I went AWOL and the school ended up calling the police on me.
Sorry that was long.
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PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I can totally relate. I had so many issues similar to that throughout school, and secondry school tried to force me to do PE, which i never did.
I was suspended severeal times for big outburts that i had, and had to go to three different schools as the first two i had such bad issues i had to leave. School was one of the worst times of my life.
Do not adjust your mind, there is a fault in reality
i think in a way i am lucky as my interests seem to span all of science. Maths on the other hand I find hard, I only manage it as I manage to link it into science.
Anything none sciency or numbery though I just am totally incapable of learning... back at uni I found physiology, sports science, and anatomy faily easy, but I could not do psychology no matter how hard I tried... I could pass the others without trying, but with psych I would go through all the work over and over again but it would never go in.
I hated PE too... I was diagnosed with dyspraxia at primary school though so always blamed that - added to my inability to work with others. I actually got bullied at primary school for my inability to catch balls and run quickly, etc...
Now though I love some aspects of sport, I like running and I enjoy the gym. I also like rock climbing, they are mainly fairly solitary sports though... Though I did play basket ball until I killed my knee
Ella, that sounds distressing. Team games are horrible. School can be horrible for people on the spectrum. I hated 3 out of the 4 schools I've been to. The one school I really did like was the school for gifted children - most of the people in my class were either ASD, dyslexic, dyspraxic, or had some other neurodiversity. People respected me there and there was a different teacher for each subject, as each teacher had a degree in their subject, not just a general primary school teacher training. The headmaster said he refused to expel me unless I caused criminal damage, lol. He helped me through my behaviours and even when I had massive meltdowns, I was helped. In fact when I left that school I was a fair bit calmer and my concentration/behaviours improved. I really wish that gifted school could be a secondary school too (I had to leave at the end of year 6 to go to a secondary school, where I got treated like **** by the other pupils and the teachers didn't understand why I'd start having meltdowns). I started getting mentally unwell when I moved to secondary school, no wonder.
I was forced to go to swimming lessons for three years at school despite the fact that I couldn't learn how to swim (I still don't know how to swim). In fact the teacher often put me in the deep end of the pool (four metres deep!) despite the fact that I couldn't swim, and I have always had a fear of deep things! The teacher forced me to take part in the charity swim. When I got out of the pool after doing about 5 laps in half an hour, I fainted :/ and the teacher told the school nurse that I hadn't eaten breakfast, which was a lie because I had eaten breakfast, I was just exhausted because I couldn't swim.
Shadow-light, the gym is good. I agree that PE at school is horrible. And it gets elitist; the team leaders wouldn't choose me and my friend (who was very unfit) until right at the end, when everyone else had been chosen, and even then the two team leaders would mutter amongst themselves "I don't want her, you have her" "no, she's crap" etc.
I love cross-country running though. I used to be in the London 16-17 cross-country team. I also used to run at a cross-country club in Wimbledon Common. It gives me so much pleasure to run up and down grassy hills and woods, and to feel cool air on myself (I do most cross-country in the winter). I also like running in the rain, a lot.
Non-sciency subjects are really hard for me to learn too. I like subjects rooted in numbers, because I have a prodigious memory for numbers.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Oly, i can rally relate, that sounds awful. I too got really badly bullied, and started to get unwell. One day i just snapped put my foot down, went to my deputy head's office and said i refuse to do PE, you cant force me. We then had a really long talk and in the end it was agreed i could go and sit in the libary during PE class :)
The one thing that was hard was when i had melthowns, teachers and students alike didn't handle it well. What are your meltdowns like, What usually happends and what do you do?
For me it can be a number of things from crying and screaming, to running away, lashing out at people around me, or simply just going totally non verbal. It happenes quite alot still i go non verbal quite alot :/
Do not adjust your mind, there is a fault in reality
My assessment is on Wednesday. I have been waiting for so long that I assumed I'd just never get an assessment and now that it's suddenly arrived I feel overwhelmed.
It's stupid, but the thing I'm most worried about is that they will ask me if I have a "special interest". The answer is yes, but I'm so embarrassed about it that I've never told anybody outside of the internet about it and I'm not sure I will be able to tell the assessor. It's times like this I wish I was interested in dinosaurs or trains or Star Wars or something else that they've heard a dozen times before.
I am paranoid that she will tell her colleagues or secretly laugh about me afterwards. Or bring it up in front of my parents.
Oly, i can rally relate, that sounds awful. I too got really badly bullied, and started to get unwell. One day i just snapped put my foot down, went to my deputy head's office and said i refuse to do PE, you cant force me. We then had a really long talk and in the end it was agreed i could go and sit in the libary during PE class :)
The one thing that was hard was when i had melthowns, teachers and students alike didn't handle it well. What are your meltdowns like, What usually happends and what do you do?
For me it can be a number of things from crying and screaming, to running away, lashing out at people around me, or simply just going totally non verbal. It happenes quite alot still i go non verbal quite alot :/
Thank you. Bullying is evil. I'm glad that your deputy head let you miss PE, because team sports can be really traumatising for a lot of us on the spectrum. In the GCSE years, I was allowed to spend all PE lessons going for a jog, either on the track or around Hammersmith (where my old school is). It was better than that team sports sh*t.
Meltdowns are very hard, and it is worse when other people around don't help. Your meltdowns sound distressing. My meltdowns range from crying and screaming, to getting so violent that people literally have to sit on me to prevent me from hurting myself or someone else. I once trashed a classroom and smashed a whiteboard at school during a meltdown and my friend (who is a rather big, strong person) had to restrain me because I wouldn't stop freaking out. In Asda, I had a meltdown where I was crying and screaming at everyone, and the security guard started to approach me, so I ran out of the shop before he could touch me (which would have made it worse).
I am worried that I'll get stopped and searched by the police, randomly, one day, and that if they do, they'd have to touch me, and I would freak out, making the whole matter worse....
I have a medic alert necklace though saying that I'm autistic and have mental health problems, so if I have a meltdown somewhere, it might come useful.
Ella, what sort of bullying did you receive? I wasn't attacked so much, but more ignored and hated by everyone except my two friends (who were also not very popular either). Then when the pupils found out that I have schizophrenia, I was hated even more.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
