Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - cant handle

i cant handle knowing what he did to me
i hate the fact i know he raped me and i could have stopped it
if i hadnt of slept then it wouldnt have happened
i hate it
i dont like the fact i can still feel him on me
why didnt i stop it
why didnt i wake up sooner
why didnt i just break up with him
ahhhhhh
i hate this
why can i just be happy?

[Sometimes Crazy]

Sweetheart, it's not your fault he did that. He chose to do that horrible thing to you, he could've chosen not to, but he didn't. It was his fault and you are not to blame at all. Everyone has the right to be able to sleep safely, it doesn't mean you brought it on yourself at all.

I know how horrible it can be to think that we didn't *stop* things in time, or why we didn't just leave these people before - but try and look after yourself now, honey, because this is when you really need good friends and support around you. Do you feel able to talk to us more about what's going on for you at the moment? How do you feel right now?

[shadow-light]

it was by no means your fault. no-one should goto sleep and have this happen

I've been going through the "why didn't I do X, Y and Z" thign recently. but the reality is that you cann't judge your actions then on yuor knowledge now... hindsight is an awful thing

i just hate it

[Popple]

This is not your fault and I know you find it hard but you are strong to have come this far and you will get through this.
You have done nothing wrong and you don't have to cope with this on your own.
You know where I am if you need anything sweetie.
Take care
x

[DUNFERMLINEBOY]

I cant really add to the excellent replies above!

None of us are too b when things like that happens, whether we be male or female or whatever! The only people to blame are the power hungr sad scum that carry out these acts!

Take Care