I was meant to get a phone call from my social worker today. She said she would. It was that phone call keeping me alive.
She hasnt called.
I have no creidt on my phone, but I sent one of those texts for a free call me back, and I know they got it because I got a message from my phone provider saying someone had listend to it!
right now I have so many thoughts in my head on different ways to hurt myself, and yes they are fleeting but I am starting to struggle to handle them, and the thought Ive just had which I wont mention, seems really appealing right at this particular time.
here is a number for an out of hours helpline, you will speak to a MH proffesional out of hours:
01438 843 322
maybe that would help
i know its frustrating not getting a call back, its happened to me several times, next time you see your MH team could you tell them how it made you feel
be safe
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I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
if they dont contact tonight maybe they will contact tommorow.
please stay strong, im sure they forgot or got held up or somthing.
stay safe, please xxxx
im sure that your MH team does care
they might have had an emergency call, thats usually the reason my MH team dont call when they say.
and MH workers are only human, anything could have happened.
sorry if im not making sense
just try and stay safe
pm me if you want to talk
we are all here for you
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Sammi is with the police, I just called her, she is being taken to a psych hospital and asked me to tell you shes alive.
With encouragement Sam phoned the police and asked for help. I am very proud of her for asking for help rather than harming herself and waiting to be found.
She is very scared, alone, and depressed right now, so Im sure any hugs or words of encouragement would be appreciated for when she returns (whenever that may be).
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*cuddles* Im very proud of you for asking for and accepting help, I know today has been horrible and not having a call you were despiratly relying on has turned your world inside out, but when someone doesnt hear your pleas for help, you just have to scream and continue screaming till they do. Im relieved your safe, and proud you did that yourself :)
xxxx
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well done for asking for help, I'm so glad that you didn't do anything. people do care, we all care especially. I know it can be frustratng when it seems as if the system is failing you, but you have to keep fighting and keep asking for help and you will get it, you deserve it
