Triggering (Suicide) - I Cant Do This No More!

findingnemo · 06-03-2009, 11:43 PM

Im going to do it! i have to! not today but wiithin a month i dont think i will be here anymore. i cant take it. its all my fault i have ruined everything and i dont think i can fix it. i dont want to hurt anyone but i cant take it i cant i cant i cant. i feel so helpless. im not ment to be here i know it. i have noone now, i cant talk to my family i know they love me but i cant talk to them.

i wish i was never born.

just_different · 06-03-2009, 11:55 PM

Dont do anything please

what has made you feel like this??
what do you think is your faut?

i dont really know what to say tbh

but im here if you want to chat
PM me anytime

xXxXxXx stay safe xXxXxXxXx

shadow-light · 06-03-2009, 11:58 PM

why do you feel that you've ruined things? I'm sure that you haven't ruined anything, and even if yo have caused a little troble I am sure that it's fixable or at least make-up-for-able... whatever you feel you've done it's should not be punishable by death...

Cazki · 07-03-2009, 12:01 AM

*Cuddles you* Im sorry about the way your feeling. Please dont end your life. So many people care about you and they would be very upset if they found out you had taken your own life. Are you able to talk to us some more about what it is thats causing you to feel this way? Whats happening for you? Do you have any support? Does anyone else know about the way your feeling? Suicide isnt the answer, you can get through this. You mentioned that you feel you have ruined things, in what way have you ruined things what makes you think you have ruined things? Please keep fighting. Im here for you.

Take care all the best Ian

findingnemo · 07-03-2009, 12:29 AM

I cant even get my drivers license im that pathetic, i tried to get it again today and i failed AGAIN! i have lost count how many times i have taken it, i am 23 for fucks sake. That and i have noone, i feel so traped. and someone proberbly thinks im crazy now and will never talk to me again. everyone thinks im nuts now im sure. im so scared. even if i magically got my license tomorrow i still dont think i could take it. i want to have a normal life so bad but at the same time i have always been scared of what i would do to myself if i had that freedom. i have no friends just family. The last time i went anywhere without my family was when i was in school. and that seems like forever ago at this point.

sorry i know that is proberbly hard to read and not make much sense but it just came out.

shadow-light · 07-03-2009, 12:32 AM

i know a driving license gives you great freedom, but it's not te be all and end all... there are other ways to go places and do things...
i'm 21 and don't have mine either, can't afford the lessons let alone the test...

maybe you could jjust go into town or something for the day? just to get ut for a bti

findingnemo · 07-03-2009, 12:43 AM

no i cant, not where i live anyway cars are kinda necessary around here.

Katiee · 07-03-2009, 12:49 AM

Hiiiii,
I'm sure you haven't ruined everything. You will get through this. Please don't do anything. Talk to someone how're your feeling and maybe sort out the issues behind you feelings? Things will get better, even if it doesn't seem like it now it will. :) Take care. xx