Triggering (OD) - Sorry its me again

brap_brap · 11-02-2009, 06:49 PM

Im feeling alot worse today and i wanted to take a overdose earlier on. I always have a urge for about a hour and afterwards i always feel drained.

My course tutor had a word with me and she was very nice about it and we had a wee chat and she was we do have people here to help n support ye but the good one is on holiday at the moment. I have to wait until monday to see her.

Im seeing the pychs tomorrow should i tell her how worst im feeling lately

shadow-light · 11-02-2009, 06:58 PM

I think that you should tell them, I mean the more honest you are the more they can help.

well done for not taking that OD

brap_brap · 11-02-2009, 07:08 PM

Ok i will write a note to her explaining how i feel. I gave my pills to a friend to bin yesterday

ThinkingofRecovery · 11-02-2009, 07:58 PM

Well done for giving your pills to a friend. As someone who ods as a method of sh, I understand how overwhelming the urges can be and also how hard it can be to put them out of the way and to be left feeling trapped. please tell your psych.

brap_brap · 12-02-2009, 01:03 AM

Yeah it felt like my head was screaming inside and nobody heared it except from me.

I was about crying when my friend took them cose i knew i needed them but it was the safer option to hand them over

Seraphsigh · 12-02-2009, 01:09 AM

Sounds like you made the right decision...you're doing really well, even though it might not seem like a very good thing to you now. Just the fact that you're noticing the problem and taking matters into your own hands (in a positive way) is a big step. I'm thinking of you and sending good vibes. *hugs*

D'Arcy

brap_brap · 12-02-2009, 01:16 AM

Thanks

My head says you need them n its getting harder and harder to get away from it. Its so tiring fighting them

one_step_closer · 12-02-2009, 11:09 AM

I understand how tiring it can be but you can do this. I hope that things get easier for you soon. Take care.