Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - Hate it so much....

[dancing loony]

I hate my life right now. Today I went to the hospital, the consultant gynecologist saw me. I hate those appointments so much. I missed it 3 times already. It reminds me of what the bad men did to me. I agreed to go though, because my friend said he would go in and give me a bottle and stroke my hair while they did all the icky stuff. It was so horrible. They normally let me keep my dress on and just take my pants off, but they didn't this time. They made me wear one of the gowns. Then they wouldn't let my friend in. I hate it so much. Kept seeing the bad mens faces. Wanted to scream. And then the doctor said I was a bad girl so didn't get a lolly.
I also have to talk to a police man tomorrow about what happened to me... I has had to tell so many people already....

[shadow-light]

that sounds awful...


gynecologists are scary... necessary evil I guess... (says the person who's been getting letters about going for a smear test for 2 years and hasn't gone...)

I'm sorry it went so badly... I tak it you usually have a different doctor to this?
I was adviced that if you write a note explaining why you're nervous (rather than it just being general nerves) they usually understand and will be better to you...

[troubleshooter]

*hugs you so tight* Sweetheart that doctor was a BIG jerk! You were so good cooperating and listening. They should have let Peter in and comfort you while they did the procedure al lthe other doctors do. I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this right now honey, it's too much at once. You really are being so brave and good, I'm so proud of you. I love you.

[Popple]

*cuddles*
Im sorry he was such an idiot
But you were really brave going and your not bad
You did really good
Take care of yourself sweetie
xx

[Emo]

:hugam sorry he wasnt nice to you :lolly

[dancing loony]

I have an appointment tomorrow... really scared...

[troubleshooter]

*hugs* I'm sure it'll be ok with antony looking out for you.