Today I had yet another horrible cyberbullying experience, and it was on a site I considered "semi-safe" as well. It was shocking and horrible... I was asking for help and it was a very sensitive thing, and this one person treated me quite horrible and it kills...
It struck a nerve. My body just got all numb in a wave and I couldn't breathe. I'm choking back tears because my father is in the next room and he CAN'T know... I don't want to talk about it.
I was okay, but I'm not now... I am very unsafe at this point, and I don't know what to do. I'm like literally numb... my body is... I feel BAD so it's not emotional, but I can't feel anything physically and I have chill bumps all over, and I'm feeling so sick... I don't know... it's a very weird response, and I am very afraid it's going to last. I'm also afraid I'm going to end up doing something very bad.
I was like seriously okay for a bit... better than I had been in a long while. But somebody always has to shatter that for me. And I don't really ever "bounce-back", it takes a while... but I don't know how many times I can deal with this happening to me and come out relatively unscathed.
I feel like this time, it's broken me beyond repair.
I don't know if I'm gonna be okay this time...
