I'm not quite sure what you mean by naming your other sides, but I have bipolar too and definitely recognise that when I'm ill I'm not myself. Is that what you mean?
There are, it has been said, two types of people in the world. There are those who, when presented with a glass that is exactly half full, say: 'This glass is half full'. And then there are those who say: 'This glass is half empty'.
The world belongs, however, to those who can look at the glass and say: 'What's up with this glass? Excuse me? Excuse me? This is my glass? I don't think so. My glass was full! And it was a bigger glass!
I guess so. I find i can manage myself better if i know when she is going to appear. When im sick i feel like i become someone else. My thoughts arent mine in a way and i guess i named her to label my sickness.
A name to blame i guess to give myself some form of pathetic excuse for what i do to myaelf when im sick.
So glad to know someone else has. Mine is called Marisa. She keeps me away from reality when i'm not well. She had a very very very hard life, and it's sort of..idk how to describe it.. because i havent had a very very very hard life, her life kind of justifies how i'm feeling? It's totally a name to blame, because i don't have much to blame on how i feel.
All that probably makes no sense, but it's realyy hard to explain, as i'm sure you know yourself.
Do not listen to a word i say, just listen to what i can keep silent.
The only way to gain approval, is by exploiting the very thing that cheapens me.
Myself personally I havent had that much of a hard life. Sure there is yhe odd thing as with everything but when carmen is around her life is hard and I guess in a way she appears more so right before I really lose the plot. Which is a lot lately. I blame her for all the horrible things I do to myself whens shes around, even so much so that I hand complete control over to her. If that makes sense in some strange way?
I have my first therapy appt in a weeks time which will be interesting. I know I need it, but carmen isnt to sure so I guess we.ll see what happens.
I have bipolar too but sorry what your describing sounds very similar to someone with multiple personality disorder or something similar.
I have never really thought about naming my moods. When i am high i lose control, become psychotic but its still me, and I had the same life as the normal me or the depressed me.
Sorry just putting it out there. Like are you able to speak to carmen even when your normal and stuff and not manic or not depressed?
It's dangerous to name moods. You have to know it is yourself so you can take responsibility. I have bipolar disorder as well, but also as someone with DID I do have "others" who take over my body without my awareness. But I still have to realize that they are parts of me and not actual other people, just fragmented identities.
I am confused - do you mean Bipolar depression (high and low moods in cycle) or dissociative identity disorder (parts of oneself separated in order to deal with emotions or events in life)?
As Facet says, I would be careful of naming your hypermanic, or depressive mood states - as this can make dealing with them, and the consequences much harder in the long term. It could also lead to confusion (as above) or perhaps a diganosis of DID where you may not otherwise be...
Sorry for rambling. Foggy brain.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
I am mildly confused... so what you are saying it that you sort of persnify and name your disorder? Is this to add distance between you and it? If so I kind of agree with facet, naming your moods can lead down a bad path.
I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder but I have never named it. The best way for me to describe how I feel sometimes when my moods change so drastically is almost like I've stepped back out of me and I no longer have control over things even if I know they are the right or wrong things to do.
Trying to explain something to someone who has never gone through it or felt the way you have felt can be very hard.
I am mildly confused... so what you are saying it that you sort of persnify and name your disorder? Is this to add distance between you and it? If so I kind of agree with facet, naming your moods can lead down a bad path.
Until. Recently I haven't known what my actually diagnos is was until early last week. At this stage my doctor and therapist are saying both bipolar and a personality disorder possibly bpd.
I can't talk to Carmen but I know she is there and before I knew why I was feeling like I was I named my sick side to attempt to keep my distance between my "normal" self and my illness.
It probably doesn't make much sense but I don't really know how else to explain it. Sorry
Trying to put distance between yourself and your illness by personifying it is dangerous, because your illness is a part of you. You are not only your illness, but yes, your illness is a part of you. It's important to realize that and deal accordingly. Naming the ill part can take responsibility off an individual as a whole and can lead to a lot of problems.
So maybe it's best not to refer to your illness by a name anymore, and instead recognize it for what it is?
