so this is a very delicate topic, and I couldn't find an appropriate label, so I just wrote it into the title.
I'll hide the text as well because it might be extremely triggering to some people.
The following content has been hidden - Reason : very triggering - sexual contents
have any of you ever hurt yourself "down there"? like, cut your genitalia or something? or done something else that really hurts? especially when you get sexual urges?
I haven't been sexually abused or anything, so it's even weirder that I tend to do that sometimes. I don't know, maybe I can't deal with my sexuality or whatever. I've never had a boyfriend and if I had one I definitely wouldn't want to do anything sex-realted with him (also not attracted to girls either).
I don't do it often, since my meds pretty much repress any sexual feelings (which I like), but then I kind of scare myself. especially because it's not only cutting on top but also hurting myself "inside".
I don't know if that made any sense. has anyone had a similar experience and found a way on how to deal with it? I really don't want it to go further and hurt myself so bad that I'd have to go to the ER, that would just be plain embarrassing.
Hey! I'm sorry that I don't really have any advice for you since I've never really done that before, but you shouldn't feel embarrassed. It's just like self harming anywhere else. Are you getting any support outside of this site? If not, I think you should look into it because it can really help a lot. If you want to talk, feel free to PM me anytime. Take care and stay safe. :)
I've never hurt myself 'there'
but I can tell you, you're not alone. *hugs*
Sweetie, it's really dangerous hurting yourself there, please try not to. It could lead to all kinds of nasty infections.
Also, well done for being so brave to post this - it must of been difficult. :)
You can PM me anytime. <3
I've never hurt myself there before but sometimes, I ask my boyfriend to have sex with me when I'm triggered because I know it's going to hurt, if that makes any sense? :/
I've read about people doing this before so, know that you're definitely not alone in this one.
I've never hurt myself there before but sometimes, I ask my boyfriend to have sex with me when I'm triggered because I know it's going to hurt, if that makes any sense? :/
That totally makes sense. I do something similar and make sure it's gonna hurt and bleed.
I can't deal with feelings there either, so I just hurt myself until it goes away. it's horrible, especially if it doesn't go away. I kind of can't accept myself as a human being with needs and stuff. so I guess that has something to do with it.
sometimes I just want to get rid of it all so I won't have to deal with it anymore.
I have cut myself "down there" a fair few times, done other things to that area too... now I have a fair bit of long term damage :/ . I've had to go to A&E a few times due to it and you're right it is such an embarassing thing to have to do, esspecially when you have to answer their questions
I have been through sexual abuse though and my doing it is linked to that.
Do you have any support for the SI in general? If so would you feel able to bring this up? Maybe just bringing up your discomfort around the topic of sexual stuff if you dont feel able to bring up the cutting, maybe they could help you explore the issue and see if they can help you figure out where the issues stem from?
Do you have any support for the SI in general? If so would you feel able to bring this up? Maybe just bringing up your discomfort around the topic of sexual stuff if you dont feel able to bring up the cutting, maybe they could help you explore the issue and see if they can help you figure out where the issues stem from?
I am trying to find help again at the moment, but it's difficult to find the right person, someone I can trust and be honest with.
I've never been able to talk about the subject at all, I usually joke about sexual stuff and pretend I'm all "normal" like the others, cause I don't want anyone to have misleading thoughts.
I do think it'd be really important to know where exactly the problems come from; I just can't seem to see a way yet. but posting this is a start at least, I guess. maybe it's making it easier to figure out stuff.
