"You don't Feel what I feel You don't see what I see You can't help me"
I feel like I'm living by this quote at the moment.
No one can hear what I hear constantly, every second of every day. No breaks. No peace.
Constant chatter.
Constant critism.
Constant crying screaming laughing talking shouting.
constant constant constant
I feel like my head will explode one day.
I ask nicely 'please be quiet'
I demand 'I need you to be quiet'
I get angry 'shut up!'
no peace. no rest.
No one sees the things I see.
Messages written on walls.
men in dark coats.
Shadows lurking.
No one watches time go by like me.
back and forth and back again.
Speeding up, slowing down, standing still - disappearing completely.
I lose time. Seconds, minutes, hours, days.
Poof! gone.
No one can help me
There aren't pills that make this go away
there isn't a magic wand or formula
You don't grow out of it
This is my life and I'm stuck with it.
Last edited by Cherry Tree : 06-11-2010 at 01:04 PM.
Thank you laura, thank you so much for replying.
I didn't think anyone would.
I know you're going through such a difficult time thank you so much.
much love xx
Thank you hannah,
I just phoned the crisis line and got a **** loa dof abuse off them so in floads of tears atm.
it's like no matter where i turn i get abuse.
I'm so sorry they were rude to you. That's totally out of order, and says a lot about that person. Do you want to talk about what happened?
Take care sweetheart. xxx
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
Although I do not hear voices and chatter, I do understand the feeling of noone understanding, as they do not have the same experiences.
I get some auditory, olfactory and visual 'hallucinations' and at my worse they are incredibly real to me. At those times, I feel it almost impossible to explain to others, as I know they do not understand, or believe me.
I wish I had words of advice for you, but all I can offer is a vague understanding and some supporting hugs.
*cuddles*
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
This is a lonely place.
No one in real life really understands, can relate.
I'm different and I have to face that.
I'm odd and wierd and different.
I will always see, hear, feel things others don't...
You may be different, and that makes you unique. From what I have seen of you, you have a beautiful soul and express yourself in a way that is just as beautiful.
I am sorry you feel so alone with this right now. Know though, that although people will never know your exact experiences and thoughts, we can emphathise and offer support for how it is making you feel. I know how lonely and isolating it can appear at times, you are not alone though. We are here for you.
*cuddles*
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
I'm seeing the bad men again.
They are standing in the corner of my bedroom.
Keep coming up closer, whispering in my ears.
Running their fingers down my bad, grabbing my wrists.
I can't breathe.
