I never intended to stop when I did; it sorta just faded away
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
Yes. Well, i have the intention to stop at some point, just not right now.
Right now i know i still need it although at the same time i will try not to cut if i can help it, not to stop just if i dont need it that much at the time i might as well try but i dont consider any time i cut a slip up cause im not trying to stop.
i figured out that stopping cutting is not going to make me feel better inside, so currently i dont really see the point. although i hope in the future i will be able to because i will be happy inside.
♥ .I'm going to fall like I don't need saving. ♥
...My smile's just the armour I built when I was alone...
There was some part of me that hurt so badly, that I wouldn't ever be able to forget it.
It faded but the memories could bring it back any second, keeping me in the moment.
It would never fully heal. I could never really be free. I could never really be fixed. Now I just have to work out how to live whilst being broken.
I feel like I'm dying.
sometimes. sometimes I'm like "yeah, ima do this, this and this, and i'll get better and everything will be okay" and sometimes i'm like "theres not much point, it's not gonna work, so i cba."
So if you wanna burn yourself remember that I love you
And if you wanna cut yourself remember that I love you
And if you wanna kill yourself remember that I love you
Call me up before you're dead
We can make some plans instead
Send me an IM, I'll be your friend Kimya Dawson - Loose Lips - Juno Soundtrack
There was never a really conscious decision. When I first started, I'd make decisions to give it up, but I never did. Finally I reached a point about six years later where I made what was more of a decision to "give up for now". So I used the comprehensive support that was available to me at the time to break out of what had been a long and addictive cycle. Unfortunately, I haven't stopped completely and I still self harm now and then, but I'm much less impulsive with it and more in control.
Yes and i started the process of fighting the urges, and then relapsed.
Now it's harder to pick myself up and try again, and at the moment i don't think i really want to try just yet :/
In the future I am sure I'll be ready to give it up. I don't have any intention to just yet. Having said that, I haven't cut myself for two weeks so maybe I do? I don't like to think about it just in case I end up triggering myself again. So yes and no I guess- just to confuse you :)
I have the intention to eventually stop. However, I am not necessarily attempting right now.
I am aware that I have to wait until I am ready and when I actually want to stop. Typically I try to "stop" for other people. I've learned that I have to make the decision if I want to get my stubborn butt to work fully on recovery.
"Somehow it's reassuring knowing I'm not the only one pretending to be normal."-Dexter
i want to stop. But until I realised how much my doing it hurt others around me I had no intention of doing so really... It was like I knewit was bad and I would advise others to stop and I'd never advocate it, but I just saw no reason to stop until I realised that it hurt others
I have no intention of stopping and although I don't plan to stop, I haven't completely thrown away the thought of a future with self injury. But I don't consider self injury the problem, but more like my solution to the real problems.
Do what you love to do, and you'll never work another day in your life.
I know I should stop it, but at the moment I don't wanto...I am not ready; I am afraid of what will happen if I do...
I write this alone on my bed; I've poisoned every room in the house; The place is quiet and so alone; Pretend there's something worth waiting for; There's nothing nice in my head The adult world took it all away; Wake up with same spit in my mouth; Cannot tell if it is real or not; I try and walk in a straight line An imitation of dignity- MSP - From despair to Where
I am human and I need to be loved just like everybody else does - The Smiths How Soon is Now
I know i should stop,But im not ready yet.. When i have worked through the problems that lead me to self harm then i wont need to use self harm hopefully.
i know i should stop and that maybe i could for awhile but i dont want to its my only outlet of any sort of emotion good,bad or indifferent. i need it and i cant stop i wont stop besides i have no reason to stop anymore......
''Where do I take this pain of mine I run but it stays right by my side'' (Until it sleeps metallica)
No matter how many deaths I die, I will never forget
No matter how many lies I live, I will never regret
There's a fire inside,
Of this heart,
About to explode into flames (Hurricane 30 seconds to mars)
