Triggering (SI/Suicide) - this is a joke - only its not funny *rant-ish*
i'm so fucking.. arghhh, i dont even know. annoyed? nah, i dont think so. i dont fucking know haa. i want to die. why the fuck can't people see that instead of saying if i wanted to die i woulda done it by now? really does not help. i want to die. accept it, i want to die. arghhhh. fuck off - please? urges to cut are through the roof, I'm scaring myself - i dont care, i want to cut, i want to have some control of this shit. but no, there's no fucking control where cuttings involved - never ENDING fucking cycle of wank. haha. i want to cut, do some fucking damage, die. help?
I hate it when people say things like that... I guess that the feeling of no longer wanting to live is so forgein to many that they have to twist it round somehow.
I hear you about wanting to die, what is it thats making you feel this way? I'm sorry you have such strong urges to harm yourself, do you know what it is thats making you want to harm yourself so much? Have you tried distracting yourself? Do you have any support? Please dont end your life although it might seem like a good idea but suicide isnt the answer. Please dont give up, i know your struggling and that you feel your not going to get through this but you will. We are all here for you. Please keep safe.
I hear you about wanting to die, what is it thats making you feel this way? I'm sorry you have such strong urges to harm yourself, do you know what it is thats making you want to harm yourself so much? Have you tried distracting yourself? Do you have any support? Please dont end your life although it might seem like a good idea but suicide isnt the answer. Please dont give up, i know your struggling and that you feel your not going to get through this but you will. We are all here for you. Please keep safe.
Take care best wishes Ian
Everything, this.. sexual abuse, abusive parents, self harm, abusive ex's, getting ditched by everyone, school, eating disorder. I've tried just about everything to distract myself, got a counsellor and a youth worker, I hate it though because I'm not sure what I'm allowed to say without confidentiality being broken.
I understand, it's so hard. I think that a part of you doesn't want to die because you're fighting so hard not to kill yourself, but it's still not good that you are this suicidal :( *hugs* Just keep fighting, remember that death is nothing, meaning that no good can come out of it. (and that's the best possibility, if you commit suicide and you're religious, you'll probably go to hell, which I think would be worse then the hell you are already going through)
haa. i want to die. why the fuck can't people see that instead of saying if i wanted to die i woulda done it by now? really does not help. i want to die. accept it, i want to die. arghhhh. fuck off - please? urges to cut are through the roof, I'm scaring myself - i dont care, i want to cut, i want to have some control of this shit. but no, there's no fucking control where cuttings involved - never ENDING fucking cycle of wank. haha. i want to cut, do some fucking damage, die. help? 
