Psychosis?

weepingangel · 12-04-2010, 11:27 PM

People came round to my house to talk to me today [to do with depression and self injury]. i knew they were coming and everything. A doctor, a psychiatrist and a social worker. What i didn't know until they got here was that they were from the early intervention psychosis team.
No one had said anything before about me suffering from or whatever psychosis.
i guess i just feel a bit shocked. i'm not entirely sure what this means. It's silly because it knowing doesn't actually change anything. i would still have [?] psychosis if i didn't know that i did.
i just feel kinda confused. i don't know which of my symptoms it is that mean i'm psychotic.
This post doesn't really make any sense sorry. In summary apparently i have psychosis with my depression and i'm feeling a little shocked [but not surprised] and confused.

Geranium · 13-04-2010, 01:46 AM

Your post does make sense - and it's obviously quite a shock to hear this. Severe depression can sometimes shade into psychosis though. It's probably good that they are checking this out now - ie. at the "early intervention" stage.

You can always ask them more about your diagnosis and treatment when you see them next. They are there to work with you after all. It might be helpful to ask them to explain which of your symptoms they think are psychotic.

Hope things improve soon,
take care
xx

shadow-light · 13-04-2010, 01:50 AM

as above has said sometimes depression can cause psychotic symptoms, it's possible they just came along so that there was a larger range of prospectives.

but I agree wth the previous reply, asking your doctor (or whoever you see next) why they were there may be an idea

weepingangel · 13-04-2010, 02:26 PM

i've looked it up and i do have enough or at least nearly enough of the symptoms to diagnose me as having psychotic major depression.

i guess it's not so much that i don't think i'm psychotic, although i hadn't really particularly thought i was previously, but that i didn't think / expect anyone else to think that.

i'm seeing my gp today actually so maybe we'll talk about it.

Thankyou.

roiben · 14-04-2010, 12:42 PM

Ooof, I can see how that can come as a shock. As others have said, sometimes depression can cause psychosis, such as hallucinations or certain beliefs or an inability to distinguish between what is or is not real. I have this at times and I know it can be hard to deal with.

I hope they are able to help you in dealing with what is going on for you. If you are still unclear, can you ask them to clarify what they mean and how they can help or even what led to them coming to see you, so that you know the specifics?

Remember 'psychosis' does not always equal what people use colloquially as 'psychotic'.

I am just a PM away, if you ever need to chat.

*hug*
Roiben x

Porcelain Child · 14-04-2010, 05:06 PM

That really must of been a shock for you..
Does it help that you might have a label?

roiben · 15-04-2010, 12:15 PM

How did the GP appointment go?

weepingangel · 15-04-2010, 10:15 PM

The GP thing went ok. Quite strange though because she didn't know about any of this. She also didn't think i'm psychotic. Although i'm not sure she's right about that.

Porcelain Child: what do you mean about it helping to have a label? i think i agree but i'm not entirely sure i understand what you meant.

i think i'm ok with the idea of psychosis. Looking at the symptoms and stuff i recognise a lot of that stuff in myself. It is weird though. Would be quite like to know one way or the other. If i'm going to have some symptoms of psychosis i'd like to have enough to get treatment for it if that makes sense. So yeah i'd just like to know. i want to know what's going to happen in terms of treatment etc generally.

weepingangel · 20-04-2010, 01:30 AM

Having a bad night. i really want the camhs people to get back to me. i need them to help me. i can't do this. i'm scared.

roiben · 20-04-2010, 01:08 PM

What is it that is scaring you at the moment?

Do you think you could phone cahms and let them know how you are feeling? It may be that they can speak to you earlier.

*hugs*
Roiben x

weepingangel · 23-04-2010, 02:11 AM

It's the way i feel that scares me. It's the feeling of losing control. The knowledge of the strong potential for me to lose all control, to do something stupid, to lose everything. It's the feeling of being totally unsafe. Not being safe in your own company. It's not knowing if you can trust your thoughts or your senses. That what your brain says is different to what your friends say. It's not being able to control your thoughts. having random, persistent and insistent thoughts telling you to kill yourself, telling you to purge amongst others. Knowing that you don't really want to do either of those things but not knowing how long you can keep fighting. That's what scares me. Amongst others.
i might ask my Mum to phone them. Just to ask how they're getting on with sorting this out with me.