I'm Hearing 'Voices' *Possibly Triggering*

[Cally]

I'm sure there have been threads like this loads of times before but I'm just really scared and don't know what to do.

Voices aren't really the best way to describe them, they are just like thoughts that come out of the blue and don't seem to belong to me.

There are two distinct 'voices', one more prominent than the other which tells me I'm fat and ugly and should go and die. She says she's called Lyla.

The other one keeps telling me she's hear because I'm lonely and that I need her

Sometimes there are more but these two are the main ones. I've heard them a couple of times before but today they've become especially prominent. Have managed to fight them so far but am worried I'm not going to be able to for much longer..

[Hollz]

Cally, can only just really re-itterate what I have said previously, hearing the voices must be concerning to you and I don't surmise it will be easy on you, but you really need to go and speak to your doctor, with all the different thoughts you been having at the moment, I know that isn't easy, even if the first step is talking to someone at school, please go talk to someone petal.

[Kitkat :)]

Have you got any other symptoms?
I split a few times, as you can tell by the name's in my thread.
PM me if you need to, if you want advice or anything
xx

[Cally]

Thanks guys.
I know what you're saying Hollz and I know you're right. I'm gonna try go see someone as soon as school starts..
Thanks KitKat, I'm not sure what the other symptoms are?

[Kitkat :)]

It might be better if you maybe went to see your GP? If they refer to a therapist attached to a big hospital, they're much better than therapists attached to schools... I've been to see both, and the one at the hospital was way better.
Other symptoms are:
memory loss (more than average)
blackouts in time, where you don't know how you got somewhere cos u cant remember
feeling "unreal"
feeling like more than one person
not recognizing themselves in the mirror...

Any of those?

Does Lyla ever take over you? Like, you become her?
Cos if so, maybe she could talk to Ayka? Ayka's a split of me, and she's like Lyla... A lot

[Kitkat :)]

You don't have to, but it might help if you let her talk
Ayka calmed down when I let her talk

[Cally]

Thanks so much for talking to me. I have been thinking hard about going to a GP for a while now about self harm but have been too scared to tell anyone, now this has happened I am thinking really hard.

Erm she only really 'became' Lyla today, it's the first time I've sort of 'confronted' her, so I've never felt like I've become her- not yet anyway.

I have been feeling kind of numb recently, like I can't feel anything properly ( it's hard to describe) so maybe you could describe that as feeling unreal?

I have had slight memory loss, as in I can't remember what things I did on what days of the past week as easily as I usually can. I usually have quite a good memory.

I would let her talk but she seems to come and go- returning when I'm not thinking about her.

Thanks again for everything x

[Kitkat :)]

I would, I went to my GP because I was depressed and self harming, and now this has come up I can tell my therapist, I don't need to see a GP again
Hmmm I see... it does seem like you have dissociative traits, but they haven't escalated into anything worse.
Ayka is constantly with me, but Blue seems to come and go... I don't know why, I just need to talk to her.
Did Lyla choose her own name? Your other one might be shy, so you could try and talk to her and encourage her to tell you her name, or let her choose one. That's what I did when I was splitting.
That's okay... Have you got MSN? Because then if you do need to talk to me and I'm not on here you can e-mail me or talk to me on MSN... And if Lyla takes over or she wants to talk to Ayka or Skye then she can.
X

[shadow-light]

I think going to your GP would be a good plan.

It could be dissociative based, but it also could be many other things. Generally speaking if it was some form of "splitting" (I hate calling it that,not sure why) through dissociation then you would have other syptoms, and you would probably have huge gaps in your memory during childhood. As for the unreal feelings, it's like feeling as if you are on a seperate plane of existence to everything else, feeling sort of disconnected from yor body, also odd feelings of knowing people or things on an interlectural level but not really recognising them... like wlking into a room where there is a woman who you don't know, you know and feel nothing of her, but at the same time you know that it's your mother/sister/friend/whatever. Actually just remembered the way people often describe it tat makes a lot of sense, it's like living in a dream or maybe a film, like been on autopilot.


but anyway. Noone here can diagnose you. You really need to go see a doctor and possibly a psych for that

[Kitkat :)]

You'd probably have to see a psychiatrist
They'd be able to diagnose you.
But if you want to talk about the voices and stuff, then PM me

[bleeding black]

There are many many possible reasons for your experiences, and no one here can, or should tell you what it is. If you are concerned, definitely speak to a Dr so you can get adequate support. Are you seeing a therapist or someone you can speak to? it sounds like you are quite distressed,
Hope you are OK

[Mrs Sam]

I agree with Bleedingblack noone can diagnose you on here. Hearing voices of any kind needs checking out by a dr, preferably a mental health specialist. There are lots of reasons you could be hearing voices, they could even be due to stress but like i said only a mental health professional can tell you that.

So my advice is go to see a dr and talk about this with them and maybe push for a psychiatric referral.

[Stellata]

I get voices occasionally when under stress. When they were particularly bad, I spoke to my GP about them. She said that I have a particularly loud internal voice and that's what it was. Self criticism etc taking on a mind of it's own.
I also dissociate, but that doesn't always manifest in 'voices'. It's more feelings and zoning or flipping out of myself.

[Cally]

I don't see anyone but will try and summon up the courage to talk to a doctor.

I let her talk last night, that didn't go too well...

Thanks for everyone's help x

And yes, Kitkat she did choose her own name.

[Cally]

Actually now when I think about it I have kind of experienced 'zoning out', well a feeling of things being in a dream and not real.. I used to get it a lot when I was younger

[Kitkat :)]

I see... Like I said, would she like to talk to Ayka?
It sounds like she wants to be heard.
What happened when you let her speak?

[Horizon]

It's very important that you see a doctor about these symptoms, because as people have said, there could be a few different explanations for your this.
No one but a doctor can suggest to you what you may or may not have, and it is important not to read into symptoms or self-diagnose, because you may end up subconsciously meeting the criteria that you would otherwise have not met, had you not read the symptoms.
There is a broad dissociative spectrum, and not every one who dissociates has DID.

[Cally]

I gave in to her and cut myself- she shut up after that but is back today. Everything I see, she twists it into a way to hurt/kill myself.
The other one hasn't been around much but says her name is Anna

[Bleeding Angel]

If thats the case you have to see your doctor asap, we cant tell you anything else than that.

[Cally]

I know, I know I do but I'm scared they'll lock me up