So for the past couple of days I've been having massive panic attacks, insomuch as I literally can't leave my room unless it's to go to the toilet (and even then it's as if the world has ended). I physically can't leave and I'm having a bit of a psychological breakdown.
I had Swine Flu a couple of weeks ago and have been back at uni for just over a week and honestly, it's been hellish. The panic attacks have been happening more and more frequently, but since yesterday I haven't been able to actually leave my room at all. Naturally I'm very behind in attending lectures and seminars. My course is marked on participation in seminars and hoenstly, I know I just can't do it.
But how do I tell people this? I decided when I started not to tell anyone, including my tutor (who's a scary, scary man) about any of my previous problems so this is going to seem like completely out of the blue. The tutors won't believe me, and I don't want to let my group down for the seminars. I've done the work, I just have to present it, and therein lies the problem. I can't do it, but I don't want their grades to suffer because of me and I don't want them to think I'm some kind of freak of nature either.
So what do I do? I can't leave my room. I have two lectures this afternoon and a seminar straight after. I'm running out of time to find some kind of answer. I can't phone up anyone and explain it to them because due to my anxiety, I'm useless at using the phone. And now I'm stuck because I can't do this and I'm running into more and more trouble.
I was wondering if anyone had any advice at all that they would be willing to give? I feel as though I am stuck here and whenever I try to get out, my mind just seems to give up.
Thanks.
AMY.
You're not as messed up as you think you are,
Your self-absorption makes you messier.
Just settle down and you could feel a whole lot better,
Deep down, you're just like everybody else.
I hae similar issues with turning up to uni... Barly turned up at all in 3 year...
I'd advise that you find the email address of the dysability adviser of the uni and exlain to them, they will contact people for you and explain. Also try emailing your lectrures (or just one or two of them). Try to keep up wth the work, and keep the lecturers updated on how you're doing, even send them copies of your notes if nessesary.
But at the end of the day, this cn all only be a short term fix. Eventually you'll need to start going in again. Maybe start slow, try to get in one day a week, and then work up frm there
I agree with shadow-light hun, is there a disability adviser/student councelor etc that you could contact to get some help with this? It must be very hard to cope with.
I'm sorry I'm not much use but have a huge cuddle *BIG CUDDLE* and I hope you feel better soon
xxxx
You see a mouse trap
I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
Thanks for your reply. I think I'll email her, but I have emailed her in the past and I've had no reply, so I don't think it's very promising.
I know it doesn't solve anything, it's just I'm so bloody fed up of not being able to step foot outside and actually go to lectures and seminars like I want to, and I'm convinced no one will believe me or understand.
AMY.
You're not as messed up as you think you are,
Your self-absorption makes you messier.
Just settle down and you could feel a whole lot better,
Deep down, you're just like everybody else.
In the meantime maybe set yourself smaller goals? Say today I will go to the kitchen and make myself a drink and go back to my room. Repeat until you dont find it anxiety provoking. Then try going out for a short walk. Then try just walking to your lecture room and back. Then try going to the lecture for ten minutes, take notes to take your mind off of your anxiety. Then next time try fifteen minutes.
I struggle with anxiety myself so I know how hard it is, but you really have to try and battle through it. It is possible! If you do things over and over again soon the anxiety lessens.
Can you try and see your GP about it?
Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different…
you once called your brain a hard drive, well say hello to the virus.
I agrre with everyone else get in touch with the disabilty coordinator, they will be able to talk to your lectures and explain your situation if you want her to and try not to be worried about them not believing you, i was worried about that but as they will probably tell you if you see them there have been many people in your situation you wont have been the first.
do you see anyone to help you with your panick attacks? like a councilor? it might help although getting there might be a problem! *hugs* i hope things work out for you keep us posted if you can
