Tomorrow I have a mental health assessment again. Ack. It's to look at my mental health, more then my sexual abuse.
Im so confused of what to say and I'm really nervous, as I hate talking, also I have to get the bus and be in a public place.
Im very worried. And because I have to organize things, my mind is racing.
I totally don't know what I am going to tell her. I always try and be-little my problems, as though they actually arent that bad.
I know I have to mention, the voices and seeing things, my OCD, my nightmares, my mood disorder and my lack of motavation.
Also my feelings of guilt and feeling sorry for people.
Im scared she won't believe me that this is all wrong with me.
My voices seem to quiet down when Im with someone else, as though they are protecting themselves from me exposing them.
Im scared and feel lost.
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thank you, Lily, for saving mummy's life*.
You are my one and only, you can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight, and you'll be alright.
perhaps it would help to write a list now of things? that way you'll make sure that you don't forget any of it and can even hand it over if things get hard.
Mybe have someone help with the list too, that way it will be less likely to have things played-down
All those things are normal for trauma and abuse survivors. Remember that voices can be part of a mood disorder, as well as very common in survivors of trauma.
I wish you all the best for it. I think any kind of assessment is nerve wracking. But the psych. will have all the questions up their sleeve and will be able to see how you are, which counts for a lot - they can tell a lot via facial expression and body language.
A think writting a list would really be a benifit to make sure you mention everything.
But the best bit of advice I can give is to be honest.
The more honest you are the more they can help you.
Good luck with the assesment and if you start feeling bad/anxious about being on the bus/public place can you do some breathing techniques or listen to some music? I find listening to music and counting backwards can help 'ground me' and lessen the panic.
I hope it goes well for you.
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
I think as others have suggested, a list is a good idea because I know I always forget stuff when I am having to talk to people as I find talking to them really difficult and that can take over from anything I had in my head to tell them, if that makes sense.
I hope you are ok. People here are routing for you.
Good luck!
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
i think the crisis team are a team of people to help you when you're having a really hard time. kind of like an emergency. well i guess the name kind of says what it is. its for when you're in a crisis and having an extra tough time, theyll try and help you through it.
i hope you're ok Rebecca,
you know im only a text or a message away...
I hope the crisis team are helpfull. They will discuss coping strategies with you and let you know who to contact if you feel you are in crisis at any point. They may also set up regular appointments with you, to see how you are doing and help provide support.
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
