Went to the hearing voices group there was loads of people near a theater near the place where the hearing voices group is ...had to walk through them it was very scary they where graduates all get there certificates
I Only stay at the group a little while as my voices where disturbing me a lot saying really nasty things about me and there people there also they said my mum is going to die and that upset me
went home on the bus and it was busy had to stand for a little while but then i got a seat next to my husband that was away from everyone else so i felt safe
Well done everyone you are all doing so well
Stop Cruelty To All Beings Including Yourself
Omniniest -A Person Does Not Believe In Any Religion or Practice or Belief But Finds Truth In them All
I went to Samaritans for the first time ever today, and I think it helped maybe. I then talked to people at college which was scary, including my tutor and support dept, and urgh. I need to book GP too. This took up my whole day meaning I didn't go to lessons, but my tutor said I did the right thing so I don't know, maybe it is a little heroic? xP
oh, isn't it time you got over, how fragile you are?
we're all waiting, waiting on your supernova
because that's who you are,
and you've only begun to shine.
i attended an awards ceromony that i was helping out at
talked to poeple
smilied
chaparoned for the ceromony
got to take pcitures
and right at the very end, i actually got pulled up
got clapped
got congratulations
got a medal :D
"pretty pretty please dont you ever ever feel like your less than less than perfect"
"Don't ever change, you're perfect the way you are" only a PM away for ANYONE
Gem [smurfette] is my little sister and my princess <3
R.I.P. Keith....31/10/12....forever missed
R.I.P. Lewis....18/01/13....forever I'll love you, forever missed
oh, isn't it time you got over, how fragile you are?
we're all waiting, waiting on your supernova
because that's who you are,
and you've only begun to shine.
i was apparently hero-y on Thursday. Or at least my friends said that they were proud of me anyway...
firstly I was in town with them when they decided to go to mcdonalds for lunch, and I agreed to go along and eat something, then when we got there we were offered free mystery food in exchange for doing market research. So we all got 2 mystery wraps to eat, and I managed to eat them, despite not knowing exactly what was in them, and despite discovering that one contained something that I used to consider a binge food (I sort of dissected the wraps before eating them so that I had at least some idea what they contained).
Then we went clothes shopping (I never do this as I often end up having a break down about my body, my size, or money)
Then we went back to one of their houses and had a "girly" night which included them dying my hair (I am not big on being touched most of the time, I don't even go to the hairdressers to get hair cut I do it myself)
- I texted to arrange for the electoral roll canvasser to come and sort ours.
- I didn't hurt myself despite feeling terrible much of today.
- I could understand and feel compassion for all my crankiness and insecurities.
I am working on boundaries by saying no when it comes to doing things for a housemate who acts likes a child.
That can be really difficult to do so well done! Hope it gets some stuff on its way to being resolved at least =]
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i was apparently hero-y on Thursday. Or at least my friends said that they were proud of me anyway...
firstly I was in town with them when they decided to go to mcdonalds for lunch, and I agreed to go along and eat something, then when we got there we were offered free mystery food in exchange for doing market research. So we all got 2 mystery wraps to eat, and I managed to eat them, despite not knowing exactly what was in them, and despite discovering that one contained something that I used to consider a binge food (I sort of dissected the wraps before eating them so that I had at least some idea what they contained).
Then we went clothes shopping (I never do this as I often end up having a break down about my body, my size, or money)
Then we went back to one of their houses and had a "girly" night which included them dying my hair (I am not big on being touched most of the time, I don't even go to the hairdressers to get hair cut I do it myself)
Heroey indeed! It's really wonderful that you're challenging those fears and insecurities. Lovely to read. :)
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Well done all. :)
- I texted to arrange for the electoral roll canvasser to come and sort ours.
- I didn't hurt myself despite feeling terrible much of today.
- I could understand and feel compassion for all my crankiness and insecurities.
I love these last two. Compassionate mindfulness is so so beneficial yet really hard to put into place! I'm really happy to hear you haven't harmed too; you do not deserve that pain. *hug*
oh, isn't it time you got over, how fragile you are?
we're all waiting, waiting on your supernova
because that's who you are,
and you've only begun to shine.
Silentboy: Well done! It takes a lot of strength to be able to say no to SI in face of horrible feels. Keep it up and you'll be well on your way up the strange squiggly road to recovery!
Sketchy: I wondered where you'd been! I tend to shy away from replying to everyones heroics when there is a lot as I'm super lazy and forgetful and end up having woeful breakdowns when I forget who I'm typing to. Going out and taking photos is lovely jubbly! Photography is a really beautiful hobby.
-Carpe Diem: Hooray for adventure! You're now a step closer to seeing the world. Going to new places can be rather confusing and scary, and it can take a lot not to become overwhelmed with ALL the feels. Also. INJECTIONS. GOSH. NO. *Hands heroic crown and runs away*
You all receive a special virtual post it note in the shape of a heart today <3
-Carpe Diem: Well done. Getting on the tube can seem a daunting task if you have problems being in busy environments like that, so that was brave of you.
Well done all of you! I love all of your courage in moving forward and trying new and daunting things, it's so inspiring. :) Well I feel very unheroic so maybe this will help!
Went to -yet another- assessment type thing.. not sure it was helpful, but we'll see. :)
Taking new meds in legit fashion/letting my dad be in charge of them and not hoarding etc despite OD temptations.
Still haven't cut since a few weeks back, and then only once and for the first time in ages! Like, that totally sounds like bragging (not intended >.<) but it has been super hard and I've been really worried about going back to the bad old days (like, ~3 years ago now) where cutting was a constant thing, and I really wanted to keep that in the past so I'm quite happy about that when I'm being rational. Of course the other times I just really really really want to let loose, but I'm working on it xP
Seeing college counsellor even though he wants to talk about all the things I don't like talking about; childhood 'trauma' (still getting used to that diagnosis >.<), my mother and her passing, etc.
Writing that actually does help because I feel like a massive failure atm. I should have taken the Oxford admissions test today but had to drop out because I genuinely cannot handle the pressure without serious detriment to my mental wellbeing, and accepting that has been really difficult actually. Esp when said college counsellor casually mentions "suspending my education" altogether. I'm not planning on doing that, but I'm trying to be more okay with saying 'maybe I can't do all these things to total perfection all the time, because I need to look after myself first' and accepting that I have some serious psychiatric issues without (and here's the catch xP) being all like ZOMG what a failure. Because I am trying.
Wow, sorry that was so long!
oh, isn't it time you got over, how fragile you are?
we're all waiting, waiting on your supernova
because that's who you are,
and you've only begun to shine.
Today, although I have not eaten at socially normal times, or in socially normal ways, I will have had a legit amount of food by the end of today, even if it wasn't in the 'usual' three meals three snacks thing. Which is good. Because that means I have eaten when I was hungry.
So I've neglected this thread recently. BAD JENNA.
Well done all you lovely heroes, I'm delighted this thread is still going and people are still being inspired to do ALL the heroics!
In Jenna news I have declined to engage in dying or restricting behaviours despite my weight making me wish to.
Furthermore, I took a multivitamin with cod liver oil this evening [mainly because I wanted to get a shiny sticker on my sitcker chart!] despite it being a suspicious colour and having an unsavoury scent.
