i guess my affirmations aren't "working" for me these days
2 Corinthians 12:9 (RcV) My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness.
Affirmations: *I now choose to release every negative, destructive, fearful idea and thought from my mind and from my life.
*I am willing to release the pattern in me that is creating any negative condition in my life.
*I release all struggle now, and I am at peace.
Hi Crystal Heart
I guess I think your strength is in NOT going through with the thoughts, so good job hon. I've been where you are and I'm so sorry for your suffering. Having suicidal thoughts is not fun at all. Can you go see your doctor or talk to a counsellor about your depression or anxiety? They can help... The thoughts are coming from somewhere and you don't need to deal with it alone. Your doctor or counsellor won't freak out because theyre trained and have seen these things before. Please try to reach out. The longer you stay isolated the more danger you put yourself in. We don't want anything to happen to you.
Hugs
Hey crystal heart :)
Know how youre feeling..
WWishing for the worst to come and hit me already, but it wont...it really wont.
Im not strong enough to do it and not strong enough to fight it..
Im a weakling in all shapes and forms, but you dont have to be like this.
You can get out of this, you can do it :)
Love you
xoxo
*huggles everyone* Please stay safe and be careful, all of you. There are so many people who care about you, even if you don't know it now. You will be missed.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
I feel kind of stupid for posting this...I'm just getting so tired of feeling empty, alone, afraid and like the future I imagined for myself just keeps crumbling away. I've been feeling so exhausted that I want to just stop everything and sleep peacefully. I know that I should be taking my suicidal thoughts, feelings, and plans more seriously instead of hiding them and keeping them to myself...especially since I made a serious suicide attempt a few years ago, I know what I'm capable of and I'm afraid I might let the thoughts win again. I just feel so trapped, its been years and its wearing me down.
"Some people get by, with a little understanding. Some people get by, with a whole lot more."
cant take this anymore, ive tried so hard to fight but cant no more.
i think its time for me to give up now, time to be free.
need this pain to go away hurting so much dont want nomore
please just let me go now.
I want to die. Like I've been suicidal before. I've had suicide attempts. This is different. I have never wanted to die so much in my life. There is nothing stopping me, nothing at all. Lies. There is something. I don't want to fail at it. That's the only thing that's stopping me. I want a foolproof way of doing it.
Kimaru, please take yourself seriously. Who can you reach out to? What is one step that you can take that is helpful (towards life)? Can you tell your doctor about the thoughts? A counsellor? Friend? Please don't try to keep it to yourself.
Haleigh. There's no foolproof way. I made a very good attempt at suicide two years ago and it didn't work but I did end up with an injury and I now live with pain every day of my life. Please don't do it. This was from an overdose too. Just don't do it. You can seriously hurt yourself no matter what you do.
Ajrandom I'm so sorry, the thoughts can be so torturous. Please keep fighting. Don't give up. Hug
Jo, hugs to you too. Don't give up. I know things are hard but you can get through this. Please talk to someone for help if you can. Just don't give up. Anything is better than that.
The thing says post if your feeling suicidal...and im here again
I cant bring myself to do it at the moment, but my thoughts keep telling me that I need to build myself up...ill get there one day...
I just dont see the point, Im a selfish hypocritical bitch who doesnt listen to anyone.
Im only living for school, which is a pretty crappy thing to live for a t the moment and when my friends ask why not live for them...well...i dunno why.
I jsut dont see the point, I dont make a difference know, and I wont make a difference ever..Im a fat ugly selfish bitch that deserves everything I get ....
Sorry.....
Theshowgoeson. You don't sound selfish to me. You sound like you are hurting and really suffering right now. Have you told anybody how you are feeling? It sounds like you have told your friends? Are they supportive? Do they understand? How about talking to your doctor, or a counsellor.. So that you can get some support from someone who can really help... Without being too close or judging? My doctors have been a help to me over time. Try not to go it alone. It's not necessary to be alone and it's so much harder. And we don't want anything to happen to you. You have to take these thoughts and feelings seriously. Hugs.
you tell me not to make a plan so you dont make a plan! is wrong to make a plan.
sorry not been around. almost, dont know what it would be, think it was a attempt to amost overdose last night and this morning. didnt take a whole bunch oh well. just think it would be very hypocritical of me to say much.
Hang in there though! You all can do it :)
These kicks take me far away my dear; Far away from myself Far away from my troubles
Far away from heaven
oh byw... your first post at top... you made an error! You by chance put you dont matter, that is incorrect ma'am! Have proof if you would like to know :P But really, you matter yons and bunches to me and solo and the uni thread and this thread and many more... love ya. ima have to go soon as well.
These kicks take me far away my dear; Far away from myself Far away from my troubles
Far away from heaven
