I have a dictophone and laptop from the uni. They are brilliant, realy are, means even if I have no memory of a lecture (and therefore often no notes) I still have a record of it.
You should have a student support office, if you go to speak to them you should get one easily :)
People inside are anxious and I have no idea why. This results in me having panic attacks randomly and I keep getting that vaccuum feeling. Makes it hard to go out and do things.
Katie,
We have had problems with meds in the past - some parts reacting differently to them than others - adverse reactions - and we've had to change.
So yes- it can affect different alters - young or old.
But, it's unlikely that a medication that is bad for children, because of their weight/development of organs etc, would have the child/size development effects on Trini. If that's what you mean.
We're slowly running out of steam.
We're still fighting, which was more than what we were doing a few days ago...
We'd better pull ourselves together - at least for an hour. We have a driving lesson in 5 minutes. Our second ever...
2 of our art pieces are being displayed (and will be for a week) at the hospital we go to, for in patient, day program and our appointments. The opening was last night, and it was pretty cool. The CEO of the hospital did an official opening, a lot of the Drs of the guys i do the art group with were there. We got a photo by one of our pieces of us with our Dr :D
That was cool. She requested it.
By each art piece we have a blurb, written by the person who created the work, was a great idea. There were quite a few people there - we had finger food and non-alcoholic sparkly, was very cool.
Our grandparents came and thought it was great. We love them so much..
We're terrified they are going to pass away, both their mothers died within 3 days of each other around this time last year - it was a terribly time.
And papa, my mum's dad (who was there with nana last night) has had a few health scares in the past few months. We have no idea what we'd do if one of them went... They are a couple of the greatest people in our life..
They were so proud of *Ash (they don't know much about any of us, but know about the DID) and complimented his art skills and said not to waste them. They both cried (they NEVER cry) a little as we said goodbye after dinner. They are such amazing beautiful people..
OK we have to go down and wait for the driving instructor, wish us luck.
p.s We'll come and reply to you guys properly afterward
Thinking of you al and sending warm thoughts,
lostboys
Thanks bb.
It's more the effect on... behaviour.
From the leaflet -
Quote:
patients under 18 have an increased risk of side-effects such as suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts and hostility (mainly aggression, oppositional behaviour and anger) when they take this type of medicine.
theres someone I've been talking to, Laurene.... she doesn't feel like she's a part of me, more like she's sitting off to one side. She's been writing in our journal lots and that made Lara angry because she says Laurene isn't a part of us and therefore has no right to write in our journal. It doesn't make much sense to me. I wish I could connect to her properly because she seems pretty together. She's also right-handed, which is weird cos the rest of us are left-handed. Can that happen?
bobbiwib,
Yes it can happen.
Our front man is right handed but we have parts who are left handed.
Have you asked Lara why she feels like Lauren isn't a part of you?
We have some system members who are in different networks, sub systems if you will. So some feel very different and much more far away than others.
Facet,
Sorry to hear everyone is anxious... Hope you find out why and get some peace soon.
How have you been otherwise?
Scath
We think getting a dictaphone is a great idea, and we hope you do ask.
Our driving lesson went well - we were no where near as anxious as the first time, so it was good. We went on some busier roads and are getting much smoother with the steering and all the processes. So good stuff.
We wanted so much to hide in bed all day, but stayed up and did some art, just a little, watched some telly etc.
Kept safe = good. There is a Dali exhibition at the gallery in the city, and hopefully a friend of ours - who is hospital will be able to get leave to come with us - we've been meaning to do it for ages but never got around to it - 'course it closes tomorrow as well...
Ah well, we'll see. Really don't want to miss it - love Dali's stuff. So we really need to motivate ourselves to go....
Looking forward to Tuesday - seeing our T again - feeling so insecure and scared.
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Stellata,
Then yeah - we believe that could defintely happen.
Have you been on the medication long? 'Cause that side effect might wear off in a couple of weeks, but it depends on how much it's affecting you all.
thanks :) lara just says that she isnt one of us.. I know what she means. It's a bit like we're siblings sitting in a room and then someone who looks a bit like us wanders in and sits down. Not sure what to make of it.
I'm really glad it went well :D well done *victory cheer for bb* I really like Dali too :) hope you make it to the exhibition, what city is that? I'm near London and they had the most amazing Dali stuff in the museum my sister worked in.. cant remember what it was called though
thanks :) lara just says that she isnt one of us.. I know what she means. It's a bit like we're siblings sitting in a room and then someone who looks a bit like us wanders in and sits down. Not sure what to make of it.
I think I can semi-relate to that... it's a bit like Rachel in me, onone else really accepts her. I mean several dislike Sarah, but they accet her as a part of us. But Rachel they totally do not accept, they say she's an intruder, that she's not part of us, that she's trying to take over, and things...
Apparently sometimes one alter can become so seperate from the others that they sort of forget they are an alter and start to believe that they are "real" and the original. I've been told to be careful and try to help her to both have an outlet and be accepted by the others so as to prevent this from happening...
i think charlie feels a bit like that sometimes because shes been around for so long... longer than any of the others, and was active long before them too. so she considers herself on a par with me rather than them. she's good about it though
me thinks- so does counsellor- that this may be occuring with me.
stuff hapeens and i has no idea about it- like take OD/s or cut. say things and do things-- anyway scary. cant expalin it most of the time-- its jsut like at one point its 10am and the suddenly its like1pm and i ahs no idea what happened- what i did or said.
The BRAVEST thing
I ever did was CONTINUING MY LIFE when I wanted to die.
It's not any one disorder
The thread is about 'dissociation'
Dissociation is a continuum.
Some of us experience dissociation as Dissociaive Identity Disorder.
Why do you ask?
