The Safe Room

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*offers blankets and hugs*


not sure if can help, but me be here if you want someone to talks to

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thankyou
sorry
awful awful
just found out that someone i know has a baby.. shes my sisters friend and i saw her as a sister - my favourite sister too :( she moved away a couple of years ago and i just found out shes got a summer baby.. thats two people i know who i'll never be able ot be around again

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doesn't mean you'll never be able to be around them again.

it is hard though I know... 2 years ago my bestfriend had a baby... I thought I'd never be able to see her again after that, but each time I've seen them (including the baby) since it's gotten a little easier

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i cant though it isnt fair

why wont the flashbacks stop how can they be so real :(

sorry im bitchy and complainy and selfish today

i cant seem to help it

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you're not selfish or any other negative type thing.


is there anything you can do to distract from the flashbacks and thoughts?

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im trying.. kepeing myself busy
im also not used to being up at this time of day lol :( at night i have the place to myself but i cant leave my room in case someone sees me (also cos im having problems with clothes at the moment so im just in a massive tshirt and knickers i cant seem to get much further than that :s)

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I'm the oposite, it's night time I struggle with lol.


Do you have any films you can watch or anything? that would kill some time, destract you and you wouldn't have to go anywhere to do it.

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*nods* trying to watch a dvd.. hard though, cant stay focused
dont feel like its ever going to stop
and im all alone

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i'm sure it will stop. you just need to hold on and play the waiting game, but it will all pass

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thankyou.... *curls up behind hazel and trembles*

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why you up at this time anyway :P I'd come to the conclusion that you were nochturnal. Though it is nice to see you about, not sen you about that much recsently

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well i havent really been sleeping AT ALL for the last couple of weeks.. but still found it hard to get out of bed cos i was so tired, so just been lying semi conscious in bed all day and all night lol
actually got some sleep though last night :)

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ah, I've not really ben doing the whole sleeping thing either lol.

it's good that you got seep last night though :) even if it does mean that you're now awake during the day

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nods
not very well at the moment, very flu-y which is probably partly why im feeling so low - i find temperatures very triggering :(

any reason why youve not been sleeping or is it just not happening

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december is getting close basicaly... it's silly but I may as well have an actualy phobia of the month lol


flu is bad :(
bedrest and drinking lots of water/fruit juice :)

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*huggles* nope that doesnt sound silly in the slightest :)
do you know yet what youre doing for christmas?

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not sure... spending christmas at my parents house, not sure about new year yet though...

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*hugs* well take care :) i'm trying to stock up already on things to keep me distracted, got 5 films so far to watch in december, patrick is lending me two simpsons boxsets, got some candyfloss, chicken-dinosaurs and lots of frankfurters too lol - kids food ^^

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what on earth are chicken-dinosaurs? lol

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lol theyre like chicken nuggets but shaped like dinosaurs xD
i LIVED on them when i was about 10 with potato waffles and cucumber ^_^ actually im feeling better just thinking about it :( wish i was little