It's true, my daddy did really bad stuff to me when I was only really little. Only once I got away did I realise it *wasn't* normal.
*very gently strokes your hair soothingly* Annie sweetie, it's been over for me for like, 12 years, and it's still never left my head. Please, I've been there and if you ever, ever want to talk, get it out, anything, just PM me okay hun?
You are not stupid sweetie. Not at all, nuh-uh. Not telling people doesn't make you stupid. Abusers can keep you scared enough to keep quiet but that hardly makes you stupid my dear.
Oh babydoll, I thought the same thing. I thought that when all little girls went home, what daddy did was normal. It took years to realise it wasn't. When I got away, a while after, then I realised it was bad.
*cries* someone please keep me safe
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i want to die, theyre telling me to do it i want to die its all i am worth
Honey, I hope you're okay. I don't know what your situation is or anything, so all I can do is offer you a listening ear. If talking it out will keep you safe, please, please PM me! Don't give in, please don't honey. People do care about you.
*hu8gs anyone whos there*....
i want to be helpful but i cant do much more than listen right now. if anyone wants to talk though, i'm here.
the guy never ****ing turned up... i stayed up the whole night drinking ridiuclous amounts of caffeine so i wouldnt miss this very important appointment... dragged my friend over to spend hours with me even though he's not well because i couldnt be alone cos of how scared and worried i was...... got into lots of trouble with mum for HAVING said friend over, and self-harmed because i didnt feel ready
all for a very important assessment that would have had me sent to a therapist and put on the RIGHT drugs rather than stupid old citalopram which has been failing to work for a full 2 years now..........................
hes got the flu. man-flu, as the receptionist jokingly put it.
so he's not coming in.
my appointment was at 9.30.
i learned this at 9.24.
'oh sorry pigeon have you already set off??'
i was so close to suicide all of tonight - i could have died for absolutely frickin nothing and i hate that... how hard it was to psyche myself up for it.... and all for nothing....
gah
no... to be honest the worst thing is that this receptionist said shed call back to make another appointment within the next few hours... so i cant even go to sleep now!!!?!?!??? grrr *shakes fist*
*huggles river* you dont need to be sick sweetheart
youre safe here
i hope youre feeling a little better this morning, remember that if feeling better was quick and easy then nobody would be depressed or upset!
im sorry for what happened yesterday but its just a setback, you can get another set of forms and dont let it discourage you from doing what you want and need to do xx
