The Safe Room - Page 3706

shadow-light · 05-11-2009, 01:55 AM

*sits*

I am rediculasly tired

stupid body, needing stupid sleep.

how be everyone tonight?

bobbiwibble · 05-11-2009, 01:55 AM

it might im not allowed to stress her out i was told so by her doctor no stressing mummy nuhuh
and daddy say i selfish and a naughty ungrateful girl for being depressed etc because it stress her, and i know that not true but it still scary
i think im gonna have to though
its weird that its less than 12 hours since i learned i might have to, and im already comign to terms with it cos i think at the back of my mind i knew id have to one day
but ive never done anythign LIKE that, like, not even remotely like that. and i dont think i even can. i mean, when i was in for an overdose i made them pull the plug early and checked myself out wihtout even getting my liver tested!!!!!!!! i cant last at a hopsital
and hospitals..... no likey. last time i went was for overdose, time before that was for miscarriage, time before that was when mummy was sicky and i thought she was gonna die..... hospitals bad bad places, especially at this time of year

i just DONT KNOW

patrick wont look after me any more....... if he would then i woulda been ok but i broke his brain and now he wont look after me.... he says... things... today i said that i was doing all the therapy stuff for HIM cos he was the one who got me into it and begged me to carry on, and that it was killing me, and he said that was bullshit because i was already dead inside so it doesnt matter whether my body dies because it wont make any differnce
i just want someone to love me... i just want someone to cuddle me and make it okay, and there ae only a few people i will even let come near me and none of them want anything to do with me any more, or just use me and manipulate me because they can see how needy i am... i need someone to love me, i need it, and nobody will

troubleshooter · 05-11-2009, 01:59 AM

*hugs Ollie* Hey sweetie. :) *hugs Bobbi* It's not your fault your mom is like this, and you wouldn't stress her on purpose if she knew about any of this. And you didn't break anyone's brain or anything like that. *hugs close*

poison · 05-11-2009, 01:59 AM

we love u bobbi but i is ssssssssooooooooooooooooooooooo far away

shadow-light · 05-11-2009, 02:00 AM

I don;t like hospitals either... ODs, tachicardias, misscariage, premature labour, and abuse injuries... basically all bad hospital stuff

how the hell I expect to be able to work in one in 6 years I don't know...

but I don't think anyone likes hospital... they are a nessesary evil though, they take care of and help people.

your dad is wrong... he probaby doesnt want to admit what's going on and thinks he can sort of "shock" you out of it

some people think that for some reason

frenchhorn · 05-11-2009, 02:01 AM

*hugs bobbi*

me scared me no want to go to sleep, but have to be up in 6 hours, me scared

Iclemyer · 05-11-2009, 02:08 AM

*hides under the duvet*

im scared.... too scared for this i'm broken and he's going to come looking for me.

Wannabfree · 05-11-2009, 02:08 AM

sad :(

troubleshooter · 05-11-2009, 02:16 AM

*peeks under Dianne's duvet and offers a hand to hold* You can do it honey, it'll be ok.

Iclemyer · 05-11-2009, 02:19 AM

thanks tracie *holds hand* cant sleep too scared. this is 4th day without sleep.

Wannabfree · 05-11-2009, 02:20 AM

Why wont anyone listen?????????????????????

shadow-light · 05-11-2009, 02:23 AM

who wwon't listen? we'll listen, I know it's not the same as offline people, but we'll listen.

*yawns* sick of being tired

bobbiwibble · 05-11-2009, 02:24 AM

*cuddles gently*
I'm here sweetheart I'm listening

Imogen is there anything you can do to relax yourself before bed? make some hot chocolate or something? :)

troubleshooter · 05-11-2009, 02:25 AM

Yeah, we're listening. And I think you should get some sleep Dianne honey, just try to relax.

bobbiwibble · 05-11-2009, 02:25 AM

*hugs hazel too*
same principal - hot chocolate is an annoying, motherly suggestion but tried and tested, warm drinks in general, in fact
i read something that said if you drink warm milk, or milky tea/ hot chocolate, and then curl up in the fetal position, your brain automatically regresses and starts to shut down

shadow-light · 05-11-2009, 02:27 AM

after my hospital visit yesterday Im scared that if I sleep I'll die lol, I know it's stupid

but ye...

on a side note... has anyone actually drunk hot milk before? It's awful lol.
hot chocolate is good for sleep though :) as are some herbal teas

Wannabfree · 05-11-2009, 02:28 AM

ive tried to get help but no one listens
they say i shouldnt be feeling like this
maybe if i hurt myslef bad they will listen

Iclemyer · 05-11-2009, 02:31 AM

can't sleep, im too scared to go to sleep, cant cope with nightmares, its easier to stay awake

bobbiwibble · 05-11-2009, 02:31 AM

nuhuh *rocks gently* shush sweetheart
have you spoken to a doctor, because if THEY say that then it's grossly unproffessional and you can probably get them fired!!!! hurting yourself is not the way

hazel, our friendship just died. milk rules supreme in all forms!!!!! :O best. drink. ever. (except when it's just cooked in a saucepan in which case its yucky)

shadow-light · 05-11-2009, 02:36 AM

cold milk is ok... but warm milk is not natural lol, it wouldnt be kept in the frisge if it was emant to be warm :P

(then again... I guess it wouldn't come out of the cow warm if it was meant to be cold

)

hurting yourself badly wo't make them listen... I know it's frustraing but you just have to keep telling them over and over MAKE them listen