The Safe Room - Page 3630

frenchhorn · 22-10-2009, 12:17 AM

its ok farawayfairy, just try to control your breathing, try counting in for four and out for four. try to focus on something else, remember your safe in here.
has anything in particular happened? *hugs*

farawayfairy · 22-10-2009, 12:19 AM

I just got back from homegroup and my housemates confronted me because somehow my mum has found out I haven't been eating and they made me talk about it and forced me to eat something and want me to write a letter about why I'm depressed and struggle with things which means they want me to tell them about the bad stuff and I can't and now I'm going to get fat because they made me eat and I can't cope and and I don't know what to do. Need to do bad stuff. Really need to do bad stuff but then they might find out and I don't want them to feel guilty but I can't cope.

shadow-light · 22-10-2009, 12:24 AM

one meal won't make you fat. I promise

maybe rather than telling them about it you can just write "bad stuff happened and I find it hard to talk about"?

DestroyMe · 22-10-2009, 12:29 AM

she called me a slut...
I feel dirty now...
and SHE saw my scars
said they looked bad..

I made people worry..I'm bad..
:(

shadow-light · 22-10-2009, 12:29 AM

who called you that? that's an awful thing to say, and incorrect too

DestroyMe · 22-10-2009, 12:38 AM

ex...
she makes me feel so bad...

I have a plate of food in front of me...
I don't want to eat it...

I already ate once today...bad bad...

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whirlpools · 22-10-2009, 12:41 AM

i cn't do this

frenchhorn · 22-10-2009, 12:43 AM

your not bad perfectmess. *hugs*

*hugs whirlpool* you can do it

farawayfairy · 22-10-2009, 12:44 AM

I guess I could say that. Thanks for the idea. Feel really really panicked.

DestroyMe · 22-10-2009, 12:48 AM

I'm trying to eat...
it's not going so well
and until someone called me the "F" (I have a phobia of saying/typing it)
I was thinking about going into treatment...
yeah that's shot to hell now
and to make things better my wisdom teethe are coming in
*cries*
why are people so mean?

shadow-light · 22-10-2009, 12:49 AM

I'm sure your not *that word*. Some people are just nasty, or they know it hurts so say it, or they don't realise how much it hurts

DestroyMe · 22-10-2009, 12:53 AM

but they said it and laughed :(
because I wore short sleeves today and took my jacket off cause I was hot and they noticed a scar on my arm that had that word on it
..
my mom said that I was underweight
and I don't beleive it
I beleive what the bad people say
cause it's true

troubleshooter · 22-10-2009, 01:12 AM

Perfectmess honey it's ok to eat, and people who called yo ua slut or any other mean words are wrong. If you get something to eat we'll help al ittle. I saw earlier you liked bottles so you can pretend to be fed like a baby if that's comforting enough for you to eat. And getting thin won't make anyone like you again or get back at them, it really won't honey. *hugs for everyone*

farawayfairy · 22-10-2009, 01:14 AM

*hugs perfectmess*

I'm too scared to go downstairs to get washed. Pathetic.

troubleshooter · 22-10-2009, 01:15 AM

What's scary about downstairs baby?

DestroyMe · 22-10-2009, 01:16 AM

otay
can I have a bottle and a blankie pwease?

DestroyMe · 22-10-2009, 01:16 AM

*hugs farawayfairy*
it's ok
*hands teddy bear*

farawayfairy · 22-10-2009, 01:17 AM

My housemates are down there and I'm scared to see them again after earlier. I have to write them a letter too but I'm too scared to do that as well. Stupid me.

farawayfairy · 22-10-2009, 01:17 AM

*clings to teddy bear* thanks pefectmess

frenchhorn · 22-10-2009, 01:20 AM

*gives bottle and blanket to perfectmess*
*hugs farawayfairy*