I have limited internet currently so not really been about much.
I am sort of living in an almost constant dissociate-y "fog" currently, not at the level of time loosing like usual, more the "things not quiet real and time not fully working" type thing. It's making day to day function a little difficult.
hey Hazel, yeah, I'm kinda the same at the moment. Flashbacks and nightmares are getting worse, and the voices... I'm so scared to tell anyone about them, because of everything I've experienced they make me feel the most 'crazy', you know? Not sure I'm making sense. Just really worried that it's going to take me so long to see anyone - not entirely sure I'll manage til then.
Hope everyone else is ok.
Ask me mistakes I have made
Ask me whether what I have done is my life
Others have come, in their slow way -
And some have come to help, or to hurt -
Ask me what difference
Their strongest love or hate has made.
I wrote this in another thread, does anyone relate/unerstand/get this?
Quote:
Exhausted now, came home and got in a mood with my gf and froze? Does anyone else do that? Freeze when in confrontation or feel like they're under attack and distance from themselves and freezes!? Was unsure if it was dissociation or BPD? Xx
I do that too, when I feel too... close, too vulnerable. Freezing up, just being unable to act, because I feel I'm under threat... I don't know if that's what you mean, but that's what I get. It's dissociation for me, since I don't have BPD. I hope this makes you feel less alone with this. xx
Ask me mistakes I have made
Ask me whether what I have done is my life
Others have come, in their slow way -
And some have come to help, or to hurt -
Ask me what difference
Their strongest love or hate has made.
Thanks. That's the kind of answer I was hoping for a sort of clarification if you like of what was going on. I'm glad you understand because yeah, I do that you completely understood what I meant. :) x
hey everyone. i'm going to talk with my therapist tomorrow and i'm planning on telling her about my alters. i've never been diagnosed with DID cuz i guess i never really tell the professionals that i talk to. idk why but i'm really nervous about it so i wanted to tell someone. yeah. wish me luck
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I havent been here in a while,
Lots of luck to you, jorue82! Are you going to try to get a diagnosis or are you just going to tell your therapist about it?
*bumps* hey everyone. This thread has kinda fallen by the wayside and I miss it, because my dissociation has gotten worse - a friend has told me I have had different 'people' come out when I've been distressed. Not sure what to make of that, frankly.
How is everyone doing? x
Ask me mistakes I have made
Ask me whether what I have done is my life
Others have come, in their slow way -
And some have come to help, or to hurt -
Ask me what difference
Their strongest love or hate has made.
Hi there!
Yeah I've been wondering what happened to this thread. I'm sorry that you've been having such a hard time. Do you have a professional that you could talk to about the dissociation?
I've been doing okay. I'm trying to come off my meds, but my psych won't allow it just yet.
I'm on a waiting list for psych help but don't know when I'll actually get to see someone. I tried to talk to my GP about the dissociation but he seemed pretty disinterested. I didn't mention what my friend said about 'people' because 1) I'm still unsure myself, and 2) I'm always skeptical about going to in-depth about MH issues with GPs, because I've found they're usually not very knowledgable about it.
Why won't your psych let you come off your meds? x
Ask me mistakes I have made
Ask me whether what I have done is my life
Others have come, in their slow way -
And some have come to help, or to hurt -
Ask me what difference
Their strongest love or hate has made.
Hopefully they'll get you to see someone soon. I hate that it takes soo, soo long to get help. :( In the meantime, maybe you could do some more research on dissociation? That way, when you do meet with your new psych, you'll be informed and will be able to tell them exactly what it is that you need and want help with.
I'm sorry it's not the best suggestion, but it could help, even a little!
My psych doesn't think that my symptoms will be manageable without meds, so I'm supposed to be on them for another year, at least.
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
First time posting here though long time member. I suffer from the amnesia type (at least according to the mind's website). I have chunks where I cant remember doing stuff. Fortunatley it hasnt happened for ages, though.
Wannabe CPN : -)
"He who is tired of Weird Al is tired of life." - Homer Simpson "I hear those voices that will not be drowned" Sanity is a nasty disease. The world would be a happier place without it. - Rilic
RIP Kat 4th July 1987- 11th June 2013
*offers safe hugs to insignificant* I know how scary losing time can be hun. Do you have any idea why it happens?
I had a trigger tonight that has somehow blown some sorta amnesiac barrier. I remember something. And the voices seem to be fading, the 'others'. I feel nothing. I CANNOT be allowed to feel. Because now I realise I am more broken than I thought. I don't even know if this makes sense or is possible, or what, but I remember. And if I wasn't so completely numb I would shatter into pieces at the memories I suddenly have.
I don't know what to do.
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Ask me mistakes I have made
Ask me whether what I have done is my life
Others have come, in their slow way -
And some have come to help, or to hurt -
Ask me what difference
Their strongest love or hate has made.
Hey everyone :). About a year ago, I started to dissociate more noticeably than I had in the past. I was quite stressed at the time and had a lot of things on my mind. I would feel as if I was completely outside situations and in my own little bubble, things would go in slow motion.
I'm not sure if it's the same thing, but over the past few days I've been so numb and felt unable to do anything in real life. I feel as if I'm in that bubble again but without the slow motion part. I've had a pretty terrible few months so maybe this is just it all coming out now, or my head shutting down. Don't know. Wondering if anyone could shine a light on my situation! When I tend to think about situations that are particularly distressing, I can't stop them running through my head and everything else is sort of in the background and not really noticeable. Maybe I'm just talking rubbish! :P
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hey stephh. it could be depression or dissociation. seeing as dissociated in past im leanin more towards dissociation, but, im not a doc, jus have a minor in psychology. being dissociated doesn't always mean that things go in slow motion. theres three basic aspects of dissociation- feeling of separation from thoughts, emotions, and/or body.
i've been dissociating lots more lately, to the point that it is affecting how well i can do my job- i'm a cashier at a wholesale club. i don't have DID; officially ive been diagnosed with DDNOS, from the research i've done i've found its most similar to depersonalization disorder. the troublesome part of dissociation at work is the "spacing out" aspect, become very forgetful, stand there zoning out forgetting to push the payment key, etc...any suggestions on how to get my head to stay put whilst in the middle of working? often my line is steady and i have no downtime for an hour or more.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
*offers safe hugs to insignificant* I know how scary losing time can be hun. Do you have any idea why it happens?
I know that stress brings it about. It started years ago when I was having counselling - basically I couldnt remember stuff. Like I used to go around Tescos straight after the counselling but I couldnt remember going around at all. I only knew because I had a reciept. It has happened since I stopped the counselling, but like I said before it hasnt happened recently.
Wannabe CPN : -)
"He who is tired of Weird Al is tired of life." - Homer Simpson "I hear those voices that will not be drowned" Sanity is a nasty disease. The world would be a happier place without it. - Rilic
RIP Kat 4th July 1987- 11th June 2013
*sits in thread*
losing time is scary :(
so is being switchy.
gives me major headache :/
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
