We are different than most it seems ... is that good orba d??.......we don't black out or lose time.. oursislike.. we all know Atm but later when trying to remember weforget.
Best example is almost 2 yrs ago when papa passed away..
We went to the hospital .. sawhim.. asked to talk to Dr or nurse and then mom saidit was time for us to go..
seems like we were there only 15 min Max.. but husband & dad both say it was more like an hr
That's ishow our dissociation works.. like right now we all know I'm writing this post but later some of us wont remember. -karma
Mom was admitted to the hospital..:(... blood transfusion again. & keeping her till Monday .. we forgot to call her today.. usually we call her everyday even when shes home... :((((( - L
Hope your Mom gets better soon, hidingme. It's always so scary when someone is admitted to hospital.
DollyPOP, sometimes I get upset because I forget things too. There are whole chunks of time I don't remember, and sometimes I think that's probably a good thing, but other times it just seems sad.
Been trying to keep busy over the last few days, but I've just ended up feeling exhausted. I feel like I've been living behind glass, working really hard not to feel anything. Doing that is tiring though. When I come back to myself everything hurts. I'm so scared of how I feel. I keep trying to push it away and push it away, but I don't know how much longer I can keep myself safe from it.
Hi,
I'm sorry I haven't been here in more than a week. I'm currently not at home and have very limited access to the internet. I'll be here for 2 more weeks.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
I don't often post here but I am experiencing some sort of dissociative distress. I just can't connect to my surroundings, it's been like this for days. I know exactly where I am, who I am, what year it is and that I am some form of safe, but I don't feel it. I feel paralysed. Can't seem to do anything to break out of it. Bleh. I function better when I am at the TC but I'm leaving soon, scared this is a sign of things to come.
Hi,
I'm still here and people are always so funny when they know that I'm ill.
Some of them don't change their behavior around me, that's the people who know me since forever.
But some are funny, they ask me 5 times every day how I am... lol.
And then there are the people who ask me if it is ok for me to things that I'm doing all the time... it's great that they are asking and not expecting things, but hey... I am able to put my dishes in the dishwasher.
How are you all?
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
today i got upset at the jobcentre and ended up losing about 20 mins and "coming back totally lost :( hasn't happened for ages. Bit worried that it may becaome a regular thing again... esspecially as going to be abroad next week if I get lost there then that could be bad
Hi shadow missed you Hon. Sorry about losing time :( hope it doesn't happen again wonder what triggered it..
On my end.. things have been sorta calm surface wise but a mess under..
daughter went her psych Dr appt yesterday.. dx with mild bipolar .. then after they took blood for tests she passed out & I freaked bad & had anxiety. Attack. :(
Then now shes had one of her depressive episodes. Where shes cried nonstop for over an hr & has no idea why.. :( I hate it. It breaks my heart cause I cant calm her. Only one who seems able to calm her is her bf :(
Shadow: that doesn't sound good. I've had similar experiences lately, but it was a bit different.
Hiding: it sounds difficult for you, especially since she is your daughter.
I've noticed that sometimes I don't remember things, but it's not like I forget things. Like on Wednesday we were on the bus and the busdriver always does a talk like on a plane 'welcome to Pimparello airways...'. He didn't do it on Wednesday though. I wondered almost the whole day, until some of the kids told me how funny the 'Pimparello airways' talk was. So I asked him and he said that he did say all the things. I don't remember any of it... it's like it hasn't happened.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
my GP is questioning the dissociation diagnosis at the moment and suggesting psychosis... which is nice and confusing for my brain and seems to be making the "chatter" louder and the loss of time more regular...
also lost all my income recently as the ATOS doctor declared me fit for work so my benefits were taken away. So much stress :(
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daughter went her psych Dr appt yesterday.. dx with mild bipolar .. then after they took blood for tests she passed out & I freaked bad & had anxiety. Attack. :(
Then now shes had one of her depressive episodes. Where shes cried nonstop for over an hr & has no idea why.. :( I hate it. It breaks my heart cause I cant calm her. Only one who seems able to calm her is her bf :(
that sounds hard to deal with :( for both you and her . Have they offered her any treatment
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I've noticed that sometimes I don't remember things, but it's not like I forget things. Like on Wednesday we were on the bus and the busdriver always does a talk like on a plane 'welcome to Pimparello airways...'. He didn't do it on Wednesday though. I wondered almost the whole day, until some of the kids told me how funny the 'Pimparello airways' talk was. So I asked him and he said that he did say all the things. I don't remember any of it... it's like it hasn't happened.
I have that happen now and again... been told though that it's not that abnormal, that many people - especially when driving - will sort of miss occurrences as they go onto autopilot. Still can be disorientating though
shadow: It's very disorientating. It seems to become more often though... maybe I'm just tired?
There have to be ways to get some income... sorry you are in such a stressful situation.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
I've noticed that sometimes I don't remember things, but it's not like I forget things. Like on Wednesday we were on the bus and the busdriver always does a talk like on a plane 'welcome to Pimparello airways...'. He didn't do it on Wednesday though. I wondered almost the whole day, until some of the kids told me how funny the 'Pimparello airways' talk was. So I asked him and he said that he did say all the things. I don't remember any of it... it's like it hasn't happened.
I get this, a lot. I have to be reminded or told what happened and I'm like, "oh really" I think because I spend so much time out of it in a sort of daze that things just go unnoticed or I don't register them.
It's like living half in and half out of a day dream, and when you're in the day dream, you're off the planet and not noticing ANYTHING going on around, like being in your own little world A LOT!
I don't know. Sometimes. When I'm dissoziated I lose my senses sometimes. Like... I can't hear things or my vision changes, sometimes I don't feel my body and I can't move. I don't remember how much dissociated I was when I had that 'hole'.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
I get quite dissociative often, it's very relieving that many others can relate to this as nobody in my life really "gets" it.. Mostly because I have such a hard time explaining and admit how much it consumes me.
But yeah, just wanted to say this makes me feel a little bit more sane.
"forgive others, not necessarily because they deserve forgiveness, but because you deserve peace"
Sorry you are triggered and not feeling well Sadie.
I'm more dissociated than 'here' and have been like it since Tuesday. I probably wont be much on here, because I'm trying to sort through my fcked up life.
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You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
