Idk about aly (the daughter) and mom and all that.. just know sadie is kinda mad at aly and hiding is very sad about it. shrug i dont think it is a big deal but then again im 14 today..
shrug..
so she doesnt wanna talk to us ..so what.. just ignore her and do our thing and ..when she needs something we can either help her or tell her no.
idk.. dont matter alot to me..
but the stuff with mom has us all upset alot..
it is very scarey. . we just mom to be ok..
we worry alot..esp. hiding.
Sorry if this dosnt belong but im trying to find inomation on ritual satanic abuse and DID and i dont know where to look as i can only find it on regular DID. I just wonderd is there a diffrent way this needs to be aproched or anyhting to be aware of?
thanks if you dont want thsi here tell me and i will get rid of the post thanks.
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best way may to look up ritual abuse as info on that often includes info on DID. Maybe try RANS (ritual abuse network scotland), RAINS (Ritual Abuse Information Network & Support) or Izzys Promise
not sure anything can be classed as "normal" when it comes to DID lol, but i have heard of alters having different medical issues and stuff so it could be possible i gues
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Kaisey - all you can really do is just accept that at this moment in time she doesn't want to talk to you, but when she needs you you'll be there for her (this is speaking from experience so I hope I don't sound all high and mighty). If you turn her away when she needs you then she won't come to you again, even if she gets herself in serious trouble (but I'm sure she won't). Unfortunately adolescence is difficult, both on the parent and the person experiencing it - but hopefully she'll have a smooth time with her teens :) Hope you're all okay.
This is going to sound a stupid question, but is it normal for individual alters to become ill while everyone else and the body are well?
yep, well, normal for us. I had my tonsils removed at the beginning of the year, but JJ my little still gets tonsillitis. Kaia (another little) has the flu at the moment, but the rest of us are ok. well, I'm not at the moment because she's around so I feel a bit flu-ey but yeah. I have PCOS, Kerry doesn't. Don't even get me started on all our allergies lol. YAY DID!!
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not sure anything can be classed as "normal" when it comes to DID lol, but i have heard of alters having different medical issues and stuff so it could be possible i gues
exactly ¬_-
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Mara - what's triggered you? Hope you're okay.
Not a scoob. Didn't write that *goes off to find out who did* Maybe we need to start colour coding ourselves (wonders if there are enough colours on the forum for us all)
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In a burst of light that blinded every angel
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace,
falling into empty space
With no-one there to catch you in their arms
Kahlia1981 & silentgirl are my RYL sisters Plumeria Sister
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
Join Date: Oct 2009
I am currently:
Yeah I know what you mean - I can't communicate with my alters at the moment but someone inside still suffers from anxiety even though I don't feel anxious - I've been getting awful stomach cramps/bowel problems lately.
Ah I see. Well if you can't find enough colours then you could always sign off your message with whoever has written it.
Being bipolar seems to really make separation from different psyches really dramatic for me it seems. I just seem so hopeless and deluded when I'm depressed, like REALLY delusional, I went through a horrible existential crisis that lasted about 2 weeks, I was really gone during that. Afterwards I feel fresh and alive though... And when I'm on the upper side of things I can make myself feel really chill whenever I like. I can just think "engage chill mode" and my body does the rest, it's interesting... then depersonalization generally starts when I get really relaxed, put on some tunes, ye.
I've been hanging out with a bunch of people and filming stuff with their band for the past few days-- I can say that social interaction helps so much, even though I wasn't talking a whole lot, they were nice people who talked to ME instead of just waiting for conversation. Plus most of them were baked so I felt like we were almost on the same level bahaha. Then I did two drawings while sitting on a couch. And the filming we got done was really awesome :] soon I had my focus on aesthetics of the film and on communication about that more than anything, so I was briefly away from being boxed in my own little world.
If I remember how machine-like my body is, it becomes more obvious that these phases of delusion are part of a temporary process. One conveyor belt moves along the product of depersonalization from the start, where it is polished, painted, then moved to where it is taken apart, destroyed, then refined and born into a useful piece of work to be enjoyed properly. This applies for everything; the body is just a constant superhighway with stops and goes and car wrecks and smooth driving and lane changes. Eventually you'll get from point A (depression, being lost) to point B (revelation, back to a controlled state of mind). Just maintain control on the road and make sure not to swerve off too far, and not to speed...
One of my insiders believes she was created by the devil and that's why people hurt me. She told my DBT therapist we were evil when asked if I thought I deserved the hell I have put myself through.
I think this is why she has been so hell bent recently on pushing everyone away and refusing help. :/
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it my birtday friday. i be 6. mara byed me toys. Jonathan
Previously unicorn-tears
In a burst of light that blinded every angel
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace,
falling into empty space
With no-one there to catch you in their arms
Kahlia1981 & silentgirl are my RYL sisters Plumeria Sister
yep, well, normal for us. I had my tonsils removed at the beginning of the year, but JJ my little still gets tonsillitis. Kaia (another little) has the flu at the moment, but the rest of us are ok. well, I'm not at the moment because she's around so I feel a bit flu-ey but yeah. I have PCOS, Kerry doesn't. Don't even get me started on all our allergies lol. YAY DID!!
Oh wow. And I thought one having a stomach flu and being diabetic was something!
I'm told our food allergies vary a bit between us (I'm very much a protector, I don't pay attention to some of these things if they seem less important) but the latex is a body allergy.
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it my birtday friday. i be 6. mara byed me toys. Jonathan
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The prospect of working in the job I have now just... sucks....I can't handle it. I hate doing so much work for bare minimum pay when it physically is beating down on my youthful body x__x back pains, leg pains, knee pains, shoulder pains, neck pains....... I hate it. I'm not even making decent money. My parents don't want me to lose this job for some reason. Fukkk... I feel so unmotivated to keep working at this job. I don't want to waste my younger years while I finally started being able to enjoy them without being depressed all the time but I keep reverting back to feeling depressed because of the stress and mental conflictions... I can't be a cashier because I cannot bring myself to say the awkward but necessary things at my work that we're supposed to. I feel like an asshole for telling things people don't want to hear. I need to get out of this loop.
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No tomorrow No tomorrow And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you" Mad World, Gary Jules
One of us is missing Rogue who rarely comes out she is like the systems counselor she lets everyone talk to her when things are hard. Maybe she needs a break or something and has hidden away because she isn't feeling so good but she would usually say something to us if she was going to go.
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but I keep reverting back to feeling depressed because of the stress and mental conflictions... I can't be a cashier because I cannot bring myself to say the awkward but necessary things at my work that we're supposed to. I feel like an asshole for telling things people don't want to hear. I need to get out of this loop.
