Unfortunately some doctors do not believe in dissociation problems.. specifically DID or DDNOS. even some therapists don;t believe in it.. I would suggest finding another therapist that deals with ptsd, trauma or dissociative disorders.
good luck and sorry your therapist is a jerk about it. SADIE
as has been said some professionals dont believe in doissocaitive disorders at all, others will believe up to a point, and still others believe in it but think it;s "no big deal"... ultimately it's just a case of going from one to another until you find one that DOES take it seriously.
still not great... but trying to distract myself with stuff, working tomorrow and on saturday, in fact working every weekend for the next 5 weeks bar one. Trying to get my buisiness back up and running, sort of put it into hibernation due to my health but right now need a distraction (and the money would be nice too). Been trying to find a part time job but struggle to do so, so reopening it seems like the only/best option.
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
Join Date: Oct 2009
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really really struggling.
feeling so depressed, its sunny and i havent been out since Monday, i feel so disgusting so thats one reason i wont go out, and i just plain cant be bothered, stepping outside the door seems like such an alien concept.
keep thinking about cutting too, it wont go away, none of it will go away.
I am not SI, but I have had occasional dissociative episodes. It's always basically the same... happens in front of a mirror, and I feel like I'm outside my body watching myself or wondering whether I really exist.
I snap myself out of it by putting on a voice like the radio or TV. Another thing that works is diving onto my bed and burying my head in a pillow or under the covers.
It used to happen more often, but now maybe once every 4 months.
I know exactly the incident that started it because it involved a mirror and being trapped and by myself at age 4 with no one to help me. I thought I was about to die at the time. Poor little me!
Sorry I have not been around here recently.
The other night I was cooking spaghetti on the stove and heard Jade telling me to put my hand into the boiling water, then it sounded like she was sneering at me and telling me "see? you're not better. You're still sick in the head. You'll never get better". Ever since I started this new med, I have been feeling pretty normal, so that's what she meant by I'm not better.
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
Join Date: Oct 2009
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Went out today for two hours, when I got back I jumped straight back into my pj's. Feel a bit better my moods are all over the place. thanks hiding, the same goes for you (:
facet, dont worry about not being around (: has the new med been working for you?
Hey Megan, good to see you around =)
Hmm, well I suppose it's true - taking meds that make you feel a bit more normal won't magically cure this. But isn't it better for you guys to have more stability? I'm glad the meds have been helping though.
I've been... gone for a few days. And apparently something bad happened while I wasn't 'aware'. And I'm not sure what to feel about it... but my T's on leave for another week so I don't know where else to say this.
For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know… we’re not what we’ve seen
For this dance we’ll move with each other
There ain’t no other step than one foot
Right in front of the other
its friday and for once everyone seems to be feeling better us and family here at home and even , from the sounds of it , ppl here on the board too. coolness =)
we have a 3 day weekend. we dont ever get many extra days off like this so we are excited!
cousin is coming to visit and hoping shell bring me some "good stuff" hehe really hope so! SADIE
i don't know... i don't remember saturday - thursday morning, where i found myself wandering around london. a housemate saw me on monday, but no one saw me between then and thursday. don't know where i was. don't know when the r*pe happened. just found all the ****ing evidence of it all over me. i feel so dirty.
For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know… we’re not what we’ve seen
For this dance we’ll move with each other
There ain’t no other step than one foot
Right in front of the other
what happened exactly?