well i'm new to this thread although i've been reading quite recently for quite a while now... i just never dared to write
umm after all what i read here and found out on other pages and books, i kind of assumed i had some sort of a dissociative disorder... but i never knew exactly and i didn't want to write here if it was just wrong what i thought about myself...
so yeah... i got the diagnosis last week, i do suffer from depersonalisation and derealisation... and now.. hmm, i feel overwhelmed and overstrained
well yeah useless post... i just had the feeling of writing...
Hi fregeist, welcome to the thread. It can be a bit overwhelming when you first get a diagnosis, it's liek confirmation that something isn't right and that you;re not just imagining things I guess. Do you have any suport with this?
Freigeist -- Hello! Welcome to the thread :). I am also recently diagnosed (DD-NOS in my case), and it's okay to feel overwhelmed. It's like, you knew something was up, but now it's real, it's actually there. Give yourself some time to come to terms with it. Then you can begin healing.
Serenity -- Just wanted to say hello to you, since I haven't been around. I'm Jen, the host/frontperson of the body. I hope you're getting settled into your system alright.
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Okay, I am bursting to tell you all. I got my GED! For all you UK folk, it's a high school equivalency diploma. I had to drop out of high school because of mental health issues, but now I have officially finished my high school education! WOO! :D
Now on to nursing school! *Superwoman music*
My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :)
I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.
Hazel - Hope you managed to cope with the smell ok. I know that programme must have triggered memories for you, but try to think of it as a positive - how strong you are to have got through it without ending up on drugs. That's something to be proud of.
InsanityLives - Glad to hear you sounding chirpy, hope you're doing ok.
Serenity - Sounds like you are doing a good job trying to comfort and keep things calm inside.
Freigeist - I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. Depersonalisation and derealisation can be very distressing and confusing. But I hope that the diagnosis has given you confirmation and validation and is helpful, and that it helps you to get access to the support and treatment you need. Here if you ever need to talk.
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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Well we were looking through names and we saw Reizo and he loved it! Decided to settle on a boys name cos he's not really a girl... Just a bit confused about what gender he was for a while.
He's now sharing information about some memories he has (well one in particular) instead of just sorta being there and coming out when I need him. I feel a good connection with him.
I think the reason I'm still SI'ing is cos I know now I can get away with it and hide it really well, I've planned everything out, what to wear, when to do it etc and cos my Mum isn't suspecting anything is wrong with me she's not suspecting my choice in clothes and stuff.
this have been messy. lost a whole chunk of time- from friday mid afternoon , after the psych appt... to last night. found myself over 100 miles from home. in a bush.
things are not good. battered and bruised. clothes in wash now. smell of dry stale mud/blood. torn trousers and matted hair and when i finally figured out where the hell i was(~ well found a rail station to head back towards london) there were no trains until the morning, so spent the whole night being punished and hurt and cold and scared and lost.
i'm not ok. we're not ok
home though. finally
Jen~ Hello. It is nice to meet you as well. You should be very proud of yourself for obtaining your GED. Great job hon =)
Fraction~ Yes, I am trying very hard to keep things calm inside, which is no easy feat to accomplish right now. Thank you for thinking I am doing a good job. I do know that on the outside things seems fine, but inside is a mess.. although the stress of it allseems far from me, I know it is close for the rest,especially, Hiding.
Hi fregeist, welcome to the thread. It can be a bit overwhelming when you first get a diagnosis, it's liek confirmation that something isn't right and that you;re not just imagining things I guess. Do you have any suport with this?
well i used to be in therapy but i had to stop when i went overseas for a year... i've been back for almost 3 months now and haven't been able to get an appointment yet...
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Freigeist -- Hello! Welcome to the thread :). I am also recently diagnosed (DD-NOS in my case), and it's okay to feel overwhelmed. It's like, you knew something was up, but now it's real, it's actually there. Give yourself some time to come to terms with it. Then you can begin healing.
yep, that's how i feel... i knew something must be "there", something must be wrong but as long as i didn't have a name for it, i was fine with it for some reason. don't name it, don't think about it. how immature
and to be honest... when i think about telling friends about it, it really makes me feel stupid... like "uh well, sometimes i can't control myself, it's because my mind is f*ck*d up and does things by itself and this is called dissociation"
well i'm new to this thread although i've been reading quite recently for quite a while now... i just never dared to write
umm after all what i read here and found out on other pages and books, i kind of assumed i had some sort of a dissociative disorder... but i never knew exactly and i didn't want to write here if it was just wrong what i thought about myself...
so yeah... i got the diagnosis last week, i do suffer from depersonalisation and derealisation... and now.. hmm, i feel overwhelmed and overstrained
well yeah useless post... i just had the feeling of writing...
hey freigeist.. feeling overwhelmed is natural. we were dx'd with DDNOS at the end of July. Along with Major Depression to go along with the Generalized Anxiety Disorder we were dx'd with in 2000.
Hiding and I finally came to the realization that the ex husband not only emotionally abused us , but also sexually abused us. It is causing us quite a bit of chaos inside. Unsure why EA was easier to accept, but it was.
Things take a while to accept and process. We wish there was an easier way tho. Anyhow, try to be patient with yourself and read and learn all you can.. it helps. SADIE
hey kitkat- yes it is difficult. it is quite a struggle. sarah wants us to do nothing but sleep. anyhow, the important thing is to people outside we seem okay. SADIE p.s. glad your orange one found a name
hi everyone - have been actively reading and sending supportive thoughts to all just not feeling safe enough to write anything about how we are doing, this is a big ask to just post this but i desperately need to connect to the outside world, as mine feels as if it's getting smaller and smaller with each passing moment. i am very stuck on how to proceed next with life it seems that the options are equally risky and i can't seem to make a concrete decision for the life of me. Know that I am thinking of you all and reading when I can, please take care good care of yourselves. And a very warm welcome to all those that are new to the thread. ~ finding
life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.
hi typing in whatever this color is (pukey color) because we are all twisted feeling (as usual for mornings)and we aren't sure who is out or who is where.
anyhow kitkat-- thanks for understanding. Emma--Sorry you are starting ti struggle again we were hoping the good phase would last longer fdor you.=( hang in there. Scath== sorry you are having nightmares, we too were asleep at that time. PM us if you want/need to ok? hope you were able to get some rest.
I am feeling really miserable today :( and tired, but the tried is my own fault as I stayed up to watch the american mid-terms so sdidn't go to bed until 5am and then got up and went to the gym at 9am. Just feeling really lonely and miserable at the moment
I think that the cost of membership is otivating me lol. Though had forgotten just how competative I can get... I will refuse to get off the tradmil/bike/whatever until the erson next to me does, and I find myself sort of glancing at other peoples settings to make sure mine are higher :/
I (well when I say I in reality it was more often Michelle) used to go to the gym daily for several hours a time, now I am tryng to limit myself to 3 days week.
Also really irritated right now... at about 3 this morning I cleaned the kitchen, the whole kitchen, as in to the point of being on hands and knees cleaning the floor with a cloth, and now, already, it is a mess again!!!
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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Yeah if I do any exercise it's Ayka cos I really can't be bothered. That's why I don't go to gyms, I get really competitive... So we bought a fitness DVD instead, so I can do it at home where no ones watching. But I even compete against the women on the DVD and compare myself to them, so it's kinda counter-productive.
I find that whenever I clean it just gets messy again :/
