Triggering (Abuse) - dissociative distress thread

[riley.]

nighttime is when we are allowed to not cope. so many tears and so little sleep. filled with pain and panic by the intense body memories.not as simple as it seems. drinking smokimg no rrelief.no relentance.

[Kitkat :)]

Hey hope everyone's doing a bit better...

*hugs to all*

[shadow-light]

bad people have tracked me down again after 4 years I thought I was safe

[Kitkat :)]

Sorry to hear that Hazel ): I read what you posted in the Safe Room

*offers safe hugs*

Is there anyway you can get away from it?

[shadow-light]

I don't know... I dont know what to do... I want to just run, get away from London and just disappear. But I havn't seen Jack since it all sarted and I can't just vanish leaving him with no idea of where I've gone


I'm sick of running away. Why can't my life just be normal?

[Kitkat :)]

I'm so sorry you feel like this Hazel ): I'm sorry I don't have more helpful words but couldn't you just tell them to leave you alone? Even after I got my ex to stop punching me every day and giving me bruises (that was 2 years ago) I still saw him for ages after because I couldn't break away from him... It's only recently I told him that I didn't want to see him anymore and now we don't talk.

*hugs*

[shadow-light]

Jack rung me, he's suggested getting a restraining order

[Kitkat :)]

I saw you posted that in the Safe Room as well... Do you think it could be a good idea? I know you said that you haven't really got a reason to but you could tell them about what happened?

[shadow-light]

I'm looking into it now. I got one years ago against one of Tristans friends, I remember I had to fill out loads of forms and submit evidence (photos of injuries and copies of emails and things) I think I did it at a courthouse, but it might have been a police station... I really can't remember.

[Kitkat :)]

Oh okay. Well I hope you can get something done to keep them away from you. If you can't remember what you did, then you could always Google the process of filling out a restraining order.

[Cherry Tree]

I dirty
I no want Mr to come back. I no want to go school.
I dirty. he make funny noises that I no like.
he say we bad if we tell but we tell so that mean they no love me.

Dotty (with emmas help)

[Kitkat :)]

You're not dirty, Dotty, it's not your fault that he did things to you.
You're not bad if you tell, he just doesn't want people to find out what he really likes because then it would come out that he is wrong and nasty.

*offers safe hugs*

[Cherry Tree]

Very switchy at the moment.
Emily and Dotty made a picture for my counsellor which I thought was sweet.

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I hope she likes it. x

[Kitkat :)]

Aww that's a cute picture (:

In every lesson I doodle. Most of the time I don't really concentrate on what I'm doodling; most of the stuff I draw is shapes, but really weird shapes, but I drew a stick figure holding a knife with a smile on its face... I was surprised when I saw this in the margin of my notes.

[riley.]

i know i cant ask. need help. no t. no anything. current meds not enough. not safe. even going home tomorrow but need to escape away. need to run. bad time. bad bad mad time

[Kitkat :)]

I'm terrified. Don't know what to do. What can I do? Not a lot. Scared.

[hidingme]

hi nervous..wanting to talk but scared.. not really out by myself yet because im not "whole" yet.

i dont have a name yet. hiding is searching for one for me.. she is having trouble finding the right one.

feel like i shouldnt even try to be talking to anyone yet.

confused and feeling lost.. need to be "whole" first and get a name first i guess


dont like this font color either ..want yellow but cant see it on here

[Cherry Tree]

hello
hello peoples in pink that good color hop you get a name soon
if sad peoples want hugs then me will give them
amy

[hidingme]

hi amy

yeh im looking for a name for her. nothing so far seems to fit.. well some do but want something different..a bit uncommon..and something that fits her purposes without having to use a name that we know our friend's system has.. (hope that made sense)

anyhow hopefully we will find her one soon and then she can feel better and introduce herself properly.

mostly, we (and her) are afraid of rejection because it seems many dont think its possible to create others as we created her.. trying to give her more confidence but its hard to give it when i hardly have any to give her..
i think finding her a name will help.. i think it will helpmake her feel more "real" and like she belongs more..at least i hope so.

anyhow sorry ..sarah woke up scard because of a storm here.. we arent very tired now but she keeps tellin me we need to try to seep more,

Hiding (w/Sarah)

[Cherry Tree]

We're tired of being ignored.
Why are people in need always ignored? It makes me angry!
I feel angry and frustrated and I'm tired of not being listened to because people are scared of me.
I'm hurting too. I don't mean to get angry. I didn't ask for this.