Emma keeps getting really confused. She will say she's Emma and she's 20 (both correct) but then describes her life as if she's a teenager again... i.e. pets still alive, doesnt know me, still thinks she's at school etc...
has anyone ever experienced anything like this before? I don't really know what to do.... Help!
P.s I'm Emma's partner, i forgot to login to my own account!
Hmmm...This is a tricky one. The first thought that sprang to my mind is a teenage alter that is (incompletely) masquerading as Emma. I'm very worried about Emma in general. Is she doing any better now?
Hope everyone has a peaceful evening.
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Emma *Cuddles* Thank you. We're just really struggling at the moment, we've been remembering a lot of the rapes and finding it so hard, and we're also considering legal action which is scary. How are you coping? Is there anything you are able to do to calm things down internally? About the amnesia... I often forget who I am and where I am and feel so disorientated when suddenly I find myself in places that I don't remember going to. Also if I have been switching a lot then I lose track of who I am. Do you think maybe your mind is trying to protect you from something? All I can advise really is to stay around people you trust, maybe keep a diary or notebook with you with the important information, and be cautious and prepared about where you go and what plans you make. As PaleMoon said, it could be that a teenage alter is masquerading as Emma. I suppose in that case it would be a matter of time until the alter is ready to reveal themselves, but in the mean time just try to keep safe and around people you trust. I know it can be so upsetting in these situations, both of you please hang in there and know that we are sending you our support and love and we are praying for you.
Hiding I hope that things are more manageable for you today.
Scath sorry you are going through such a hard time. Sending you hugs.
Kitkat - you do need to register unless it's for something like contraception. Sorry your last GP was so unsympathetic. I would encourage you to register, a GP is a good source of support and a gateway to access more support.
Yesterday we decided to contact our abuser's previous girlfriends. So far we have heard back from one of them. There were some big surprises in what she told us. We are seriously considering going to the police because we are very scared about how many more girls he will do this to if no one speaks up and stops him. Feel like everything is turning to dust. So many lies.
I just want to curl up and die. Don't want to feel anything anymore.
thinking of you.
things are for s***... inside.outside. everywhere.
there aren't many people left that are able to f*** me over externally because i don't know many more people.
people inside are just as against me, really. they've hurt the body to the extent it needed surgery and are making me deal with all the pain and hurt. i need to be punished clearly.
he phoned. knows every button to press. feel so alone. even with people. so alone. hurting and exhausted and barely willing for yet another 'chance'. why? its just been, one more time for 18+years.. no more chances.. im running out.
when im most hurting they're torturing me with the memories they took for me. hurting me. im not sure what i did so wrong. exhausted is ot enough to describe. so very tired. pissed myself with the nightmares again, no f***ing control. haven't done that for a few years. head is so much to cope with
keep having "flashes" of being a little child and bad things happening, of being forced to do things... I dont know if they are real, how do I know if they are real???
Becci I'm so sorry that you are having such a difficult time. Is there anyone you can talk to? Do you have a therapist? Maybe you could call a helpline like Women's Aid or RAINN? Sending you lots and lots of safe hugs.
Hazel that must be really horrid. Not sure what to advise but we are thinking of you.
Feel like ****, explained in http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...12#post2491012. Things are very strange in my mind. I don't know where the hell I am. I don't know where I am in terms of location and I don't know where the hell I am inside my head. I'm far, far away. Flashbacks relentless it's just raperaperape and I really, really, really want to end my life now.
Thanks for the advice guys. That makes lots of sense.
She's all over the place...
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Last night i found her attempting to hang herself. I managed to stop it before it went too far and then she switched back and was really confused. She was scared too.
She's just been sectioned because i had to call 999 as she SH'd and wasn't co-operating with me and trying to get away to do more damage. It wasn't her but i don't know who it was.
She wouldn't talk to the police or paramedics (she'd switched to a little girl) so they had to section her and take her to hospital.
She's in a horrible little room with only a foam bed and a foam chair in. And she has to stay there until they have 2 psychs, a nurse, a social worker etc... there to carry out an assessment. They aren't able to say when this will happen. So for all i know she could be there for days
She isnt even allowed access to her mobile so she cant ring to talk to anyone - i think its the worst possible place to put her but i understand that they needed to do something.
I'm just fed up with her not getting the right help!
Last night she agreed with me that she has DID and said she will help me fight for her to have the assessment (i's already tried but because she didnt say anything they just ignored me) and psychotherapy (which they said she wasnt strong enough for, which is a load of **** as she constantly has to deal with the past through flashbacks anyway!)
Grrr! I want her home and i want her to get the right help!
Sorry for my pity post.
Thank you for showing her love and concern, she really appreciates it.
hi Jocelyn. sorry to hear Emma is having such a bad time right now. we hope shell get better soon. No worries about the post, its good for you to be able to vent and well it help keep us informed on how things are with Emma.
Hope things will get bettr soon and she can go back home soon. let her know we care about her ok? hang in there.. Hiding
Jocelyn, we are so sorry to hear that Emma is going through such an awful time. I hope that her stay in hospital is really helpful to her, that she is able to have some good conversations with the staff there, and that she will be able to access more help and support. You must be going through a terrible time too and we are sending you both all our support and care. Please know that we are praying for you both, and that we are here any time you need to talk.
We are feeling a bit more stable since yesterday but still haven't really surfaced and feeling very raw. Everything just seems so overwhelming right now. We are doing some investigating and discovering more and more lies that the abuser told us. Who the hell is this man?? Can't get it out of our mind. We want answers!!!
I don;t know. Id think most of the time their real, or more faded than the actual event.
I hope they are not real they are awful
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Hi I'm Emma's girlfriend (Cherry Tree)
Thanks for the advice guys. That makes lots of sense.
She's all over the place...
The following content has been hidden - Reason : trig Sui
Last night i found her attempting to hang herself. I managed to stop it before it went too far and then she switched back and was really confused. She was scared too.
She's just been sectioned because i had to call 999 as she SH'd and wasn't co-operating with me and trying to get away to do more damage. It wasn't her but i don't know who it was.
She wouldn't talk to the police or paramedics (she'd switched to a little girl) so they had to section her and take her to hospital.
She's in a horrible little room with only a foam bed and a foam chair in. And she has to stay there until they have 2 psychs, a nurse, a social worker etc... there to carry out an assessment. They aren't able to say when this will happen. So for all i know she could be there for days
She isnt even allowed access to her mobile so she cant ring to talk to anyone - i think its the worst possible place to put her but i understand that they needed to do something.
I'm just fed up with her not getting the right help!
Last night she agreed with me that she has DID and said she will help me fight for her to have the assessment (i's already tried but because she didnt say anything they just ignored me) and psychotherapy (which they said she wasnt strong enough for, which is a load of **** as she constantly has to deal with the past through flashbacks anyway!)
Grrr! I want her home and i want her to get the right help!
Sorry for my pity post.
Thank you for showing her love and concern, she really appreciates it.
Jocelyn x x x
*hugs* I hope you are ok. Emma is obviously struggling right now so at least you know she's sae when in hospital, how long is the section for?
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Hi everyone.
Jocelyn I'm really sorry to hear about Emma, tell her that I'm thinking of her and hope that she's okay. How long is she going to be sectioned for?
Obadiah I hope you're okay too.
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Sorry I couldn't come on yesterday, I had really bad headaches all day and then got a flipping migraine on top of it... Not good for a first day at college. But feeling a lot better today (:
Jocelyn, so sorry to hear about Emma. I have been there with other parts attempting suicide, the paramedics, the little foam room, everything. It's no fun and scary, but hopefully she can get some help now. It sounds like, more than ever, she really needs it.
Kat, yay for no more pain! How was your first day of college? :)
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It was really good :) I was talking to this really nice teacher at college about the counselling there and stuff, they said its entirely confidential and my parents don't need to know! So happy about that.
We're doing well. Trying to apply for some part-time work, working on our mental health. Had group therapy today and will have individual therapy tomorrow. Lots of therapy!
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Oh that's good to hear, is the therapy helping all of you? Where are you looking to work?
Talking of work, I have a work placement soon. I'm either going to an addict's rehab centre, a care centre for people with multiple sclerosis or a care centre for people with schizophrenia.
We're going to be a groomer's assisstant at a pet store. We'll bathe dogs and cats and help out the groomers. It should be fun :D! Therapy does help, but individual more than group. Hope your work placement goes well.
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Oooh that'll be good (: I work at a vets, have to clean out all the animals, feed them, give them medication and stuff. I'm sure you'll enjoy it, brushing animals can be very therapeutic too (:
Ahh thanks, I'm hoping it will too, fingers crossed!
Morning everyone, we hope that you all had a safe and restful night and that today is a good day for us all.
We feel so drained, so tired of life, so overwhelmed. Want to die more than anything. There is a lot going on for us right now: the STI tests, thinking of going to the police, contacting other girls who have been abused by him, deciding to find a new therapist with more expertise in r*pe and domestic abuse...
Kind of feel like we're just wasting time until we can kill ourselves.
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they are awful