not coping. far from.. hiding as best as we can..keeping safe by staying with friends but most don't want to be safe and are toturing me internally. i hate this ****
I've got BPD and i dissociate too (says my psychologist) i call it zuzzy days where i feel like...well i don't feel, everything is louder and echoey and sounds like an interuppted radio station, everything looks brighter and my heart beats fast...i feel like i'm going slower than time...
anyway i've been getting it alot lately...but i've also been missing out days...like i don't remember anything of saturday. yesterday i had to really concentrate on speaking and listening. i've been feeling "zuzzy" most of the week...
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Someone started crying when I was at the vets yesterday, when I came back I couldn't remember why I was crying and I couldn't remember how long I'd been crying for.
Hi Sarah, how are you sweetie? Kaia says hey & do you like horses? She's happy because she has 2 new horses. She's 6 too.
Hope everyone else is ok. Sorry a lot of you guys are having probs at the mo. Things aren't great here. I also have BPD & DID so I'm rocking out at the mo. Meh, not feeling so great... not really able to say what's wrong. Grrrrrrr
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You felt the gravity of tempered grace,
falling into empty space
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i have such an awul headache, been almost constant for 3 days... not sure if it's dissociation related or caffine withdrawl or what, but its making me want to just curl up in the dark until it goes away.
*offers Hazel hugs* I too have a constant headache... feeling sick too. Not a tummy bug thing, but a high anxiety level thing I think.
I feel really weepy, as if I'm about to burst into tears at any point. No idea why. Been keeping busy today with errands though.
I've actually been given appointments to see a psych on the NHS! Only been 9 months in coming, but for the next three weeks I see him weekly as a kind of assessment... not sure what I'm being assessed for, but it's a step in the right direction. So yeah. And sorry I've not been around, things have been kind of hectic recently.
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that's great that yu are getting to seee a psych :) the assement will probably be things like famoly history, what made you go to see them, an overveiw of your life, ect.
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guess no body talks here anymore.. that sucks. yesateday a t work sucked bad Hiding and Sarah would still be in bed hitting snooze if they could be so I am gonna get us to work at all today.. yeah im super pissed but we can afford to quit the job yet.. but boy when/if we can the boss better watch the ****ing out ha!!
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Hey Sadie and Sarah, hope both of you have been okay.
Sarah, hope you aren't feeling too depressed now, I was a few days ago but it's weird how quickly these things can change. Do you know what you can do to make yourself feel better?
Meh, not feeling so great... not really able to say what's wrong. Grrrrrrr
