hi all hope everyone is ok. how come when one thing goes bad everything does?
we are still swollen and itchy hands and arms are still swollen, itchy but better but we keep get spots in different places.. behind ears or the fact that my bottom lip hurts and is swollen.. but what is going on with me isnt even important anymore.
For awhile now my daughter has said off and on that she gets dizzy after standing up from the couch and such.. sometimes shell bump into walls walking or just take a few steps and sit down.. i just figured it was from standing up too fast which is pretty normal. the past month or so she has seemed to get dizzy alot more often.. i keep saying i need to take her to dr and get her checked out but well i always forget.. i wont anymore tho.
yesterday she scared the crap outta all of us.. she and walked like 5- 10 steps to our kitchen to get something for lunch.. next i know i turn around and she has crumpled to the floor and passed out. she woke up like 2 sec later and is ok but sarah and i cried and held her for like 30 minutes. sarah kept repeating inside that she thought aly was real sick and gonna die.. which only upset me more.
she is only 13 yrs old. too young to have stuff like this happen. we are starting to watch her closely and make sure she eats and snacks on good stuff even when she doesnt feel hungry. hubby is gonna take her to dr tuesday probably..im gonna have them to blood and urine tests... not even sure we will have the $ for all the dr visit then..probably not but ill borrow it from mom or something.. she has to go! yeah maybe i am over reacting but i can not help it.. this is my baby girl and if anything happens to her i will just not be able to live anymore. i am so freaked out still and she has been fine since..she passed out about 1:30pm yesterday.. my anxiety is still very high about it all and im constantly asking her how she feels and if she is ok. i cant help it. anyhow ill shut up now i gotta go to work soon.. since i missed friday.. Hiding
There's gaps in this afternoon. Food cooked, head hurting. I thought I was on the computer, but apparently not. Anxiety makes my blood have pins&needles and I can feel it rushing through my circulatory system. Grasping at the physical facts. I know I exist because my body exists, right? Like any other human. I am composed of living tissue. I exist.
I feel like I'm going to be sick, but I don't know why.
For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know… we’re not what we’ve seen
For this dance we’ll move with each other
There ain’t no other step than one foot
Right in front of the other
i have this. Her name is allie. she has been with me since i was 16. she is dangerous to me, but i feel lost without her. i also have kelly. she is 5. she is always present when im scared. i dont really lose time, but i dont really remember what im doing. i dont know if that is losing time or not. i dont know what else to say. hope everyone is okay.
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A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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Hiding, I'm sorry to hear about your daughter, I hope she's okay.
Labyrinth, sorry you feel like self harming. If you didn't well done, and if you did, never mind, it's just a slip up and you can draw a line beneath it (:
I'm having a hard time remembering things. I will remember them, such as what I did in the day, but I have to really try and think about what it was I did. These things aren't coming easily anymore. Apparently earlier I said that I was seeing my friend tonight, but I don't recall it.
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thanks kitkat. we are taking her to dr tomorrow gonna make appt today, Katie- yes she started having her cycles about a yr ago.
ive turned into really super protective moomy with her. making sure she eats good stuff and decent times even if its stuff she doesnt like and always telling her to get up slowly from sitting or laying down. yesterday she did get up too fast a few times and she would just suddenly sit down in the middle of the floor because she felt like she would pass out .. sigh.. she really has my anxiety doing some awful things...been so worried.
i feel horrible, so alone, so tiny, so mute, can't speak can't scream, i need it out, need the bad out of me. there's coldness to my core, hot pain, i can't breathe and this keeps getting worse and worse and i can't think, i need to think, need to stop this somehow, how do i stop it? so sick so sick inside
For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know… we’re not what we’ve seen
For this dance we’ll move with each other
There ain’t no other step than one foot
Right in front of the other
Sorry I haven't been around all, my computer blew out on me spectacularly a few days ago. Just got caught up on how everyone is doing.
Hiding -- So sorry to hear about your daughter. She could just have naturally very low blood pressure, and there is medicine she could take for it. Whatever it is, I'm sure she will be fine and well again soon :).
Rosiebucket -- Hello and welcome! It's good to feel like you're not alone :).
Hannah -- I miss you. Where are you? If you're lurking and read this, I'm thinking of you and wish you would post and tell all of us how you are doing.
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Oh my God guys, I am so excited! I just registered for college a couple of days ago! Such an exciting milestone and lots of opinions inside about it. We have at least decided that Sable will be responsible for studying and doing homework, but not sure how to incorporate everyone else. The littles are nervous.
Hope everyone does well and continues to do so.
My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :)
I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
Join Date: Oct 2009
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Oooooh well done! You must be excited! It's good that one of your alters is going to help you with the work, I think when I go back I'll do that too, they can help keep me motivated.
I (Jen) haven't had a lot of success with school in the past, so just one elementary French class to get our feet wet. I studied French for five years, so this will be review for me. I'm trying to make my grades better so that I can be accepted into the nursing program next year.
My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :)
I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.
I finally found somewhere to live :D I move in on Monday. Though no idea as yet where I am staying tonight, called more hostels than I can count but none have an vacancies :( I'm at Jacks fathers right now, but he'll be in from work soon so I'll have to leave
Having constant headaches right now, and feeling sort of "Not here" if that makes sense... like my body is numb and I am not fully attatched to it
hi thanks yall for positive thoughts i need them lately ..too much negative around me lately.. so been quiet and sorta isolating.. this pic shows alot of how i feel with anxiety/depression/worry..
Ijust feel stuck in the middle of that horrible storm cloud waiting for bad things to happen.. feel like the smallest thing will make everything crumble..
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
Join Date: Oct 2009
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It's okay, hope you're feeling slightly better (: I know how you feel, I feel like I'm on a really unstable bridge and if I tread my footing wrong slightly somewhere the whole bridge is going to break and I'm going to fall into a black abyss.
