Definitely agree on the pick and mix side of things. People are too complex to expect everything to fit under one category, and levels of comorbidity with just about everything are so high it makes sense to be able to look at some holistically and JUST tick the boxes of the symptoms present and treat those accordingly as one mass...
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I noticed that when Blue has written she wrote with my left hand, which is strange as I am right-handed.
I think Blue has been trying to come out again... Not as much as she has been but it's been me and her, so suddenly I'll turn funny and start trying to play on the bus by looking over the top of a bus seat at one of my friends. I've also noticed that she now hides behind my fists, like if she is trying to come out she won't do it without me being there so she'll put my fists in front of my face, covering all of my face except my eyes. It's kinda strange.
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She doesn't want to do anything alone now, which is understandable, given what happened last time she spoke to someone.
Aww (: she has said that a few times, to me and to Blue, it makes me feel happy that Blue has a friend
yeh i liks hav litl frens cuz it jus bes me an sadie an hiding and the voic in heer an i gots no littls to talk to or pla wif an growd ups bes boing in heer.
we gos to ER tonite i tink. i tak my mikeybares wif me.. i hops tey let me keps him wif me. i scard..
hiding say almos tim for werk now so i need go bak to my room =/ i hat werk..it scaree an i no liks strngrs. strangrs lok at me funnee. =(
God, this forum had been dead for the last few days, I was away for a couple hours and like 3 more pages have sprung up?
To Moke, briefly. I don't really identify any member of the system as the original person. We used to think it was Sophie, she was out the most, seemed to have a lot of memories, however, I am coping in a similar way. I think there are some alters that are more prominent than others but that we don't need to put one forward as the original or the one to look after.
Hopefully everyone else is ok. T
System A
Sophie Mandi Max Gwen Mercy Erin AVA Tracey Bridget My Isaac
ye, often when others re about I'm not "there" either, but sometimes others can come near the front and then I an feel them and know who they are from how they feel... also from how they speak, although all the same voice wise the way they speak is different, Michelle speaks quickly and aggressively for eample, Sarah is quiet and uses very few words, Rachel is quiet but speaks in a more "flowery" and almost poetic type way... so ye... I guess you just learn the differences
moke, no, I've not tried to get a diagnosis. Well, I was referred to the consulatant psychiatrist to fix my meds, nearly 5 years ago now. But he didn't really look beyond the depression. I was there to get on the right anti-depressants, and that was that. I also didn't have as much self knowledge and awareness as I do now. I wasvery depressed at the time. I guess. Well, I was on two anti-depressants together for a while, so I must have been.
But that doesn't mean that my splits aren't very real. My therapist knows me in all my complexity far more than the psychiatrist ever did in the 4 appointments I had with him.
I'd never really considered that they might be viewed as just as valid as the "main person".
Got a question on this... can we ever really truely know who the "main person" is? Does the original person evern really truely exist as they split to create us all? I mean I think of myself as the "host" or whatever, but that's because I am in control the most often, but does that really mean that I am the "mian" or "original"? Think may have brought this up before not sure but it's an interesting thing... then again maybe who was here first or whatever doesn't matter, we are all as real as one another, we just happen to share a body
For me, it's the part of me that is becoming more allowed to be undefended, unrestrained, genuinely herself.
It has been blocked for years with all the defences, including the Others - sweet, petulant little girl, aggressive withdrawal, isolation...
Might the dark man be how this younger you perceived your dad, and your worries about his survival? It certainly sounds a very sad and fraught time in your life. I think that it's like dream imagery, putting forward this feeling state in like a 'cameo'.
i think it was hiding who was talking about feeling 'in denial'... it got me thinking that it was time to admit it... I feel like that too. I think that I can't possibly have dissociative dissorder, because I have..or had.. the sensation of 'creating' the 'others', of deciding to 'be' them... I'd 'be' one of the littles, and in the back of my mind i'd be thinking 'why am i doing this, stop doing this' and yet i'd continue to 'be' that personality. Have I created this illness? The pysch's DX was DDNOS. :S I think the other's dont exsist, sometimes I think there is one other, and it is a manipulitive bitch. Either that or I have some kind of manipulitve disorder that means I get a kick out of controlling and hurting people and making them feel sorry for me.... my ex once accused me of that, maybe he was right.
You are talking to: Kat The Others are: Annabell (Belle), Rosie, Lotty, Kate, Amy, Jessica (Jess), Sarah, Ramiel(Miel), Elizabeth (Liz), Shadow
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not sure but it's an interesting thing... then again maybe who was here first or whatever doesn't matter, we are all as real as one another, we just happen to share a body
