Triggering (Abuse) - dissociative distress thread

[Kitkat :)]

Aww ):

*hugs*

Are you okay? Some people are just mean, it's in their nature.

[hidingme]

tanks kitti kat-

i bes ok..i tink i bes getin usd to pepls bes meen me al tim. it no fayr but it alwas happin.. leest i can bes myslef and bes litl an saf heer at hom.

it no fayr but oh well ges it not alwas bes good to bes litl. =/

[hidingme]

yeh i not undrstan wy tings can no bes fayr an al pepls can no bes nic. evribodi heer hav problims rite?
so wy tey hav bes meen?
if tey meen us for ares problims.. do tat meen we can bes meen to tem for thers?

Sadie tel me it bes ok.
Sarah

[hidingme]

saf hug labyinth

it bes ok..

[Kitkat :)]

It'll be okay, why are you fearful this time round?

[Kitkat :)]

Oh fair enough. Hope you're okay.

[shadow-light]

i', really scared... really scary odd things are being said and i don't understand them

[Kitkat :)]

What kind of things? Do you know who's saying them?

[shadow-light]

scary things about not being clean and deservingpain and stuff... I have no idea where it came from

[Kitkat :)]

Oh... I think they may have been posted on your most recent thread on the Abuse and Bullying Forum.
I'm sorry that those things are being said.

[shadow-light]

Yes!!!! it's odd isn't it??? babies too. But ye, my Grans dog can tell when we switch and he gets really scared or angry about it

[hidingme]

mommee an daddi's dog ..rocky.. he liks kises me lots but he like hiding lots to so i not know if diffrent

[Kitkat :)]

My cat likes Skye, but when Ayka's come out he doesn't like it and stays away.

[Horizon]

That's so odd, my dog does the same thing!

[Kitkat :)]

It's weird that they can sense that something like that is different. They really are intelligent creatures.

[shadow-light]

I think animals and young children are far more sensitive to subtle differances than adults are

[Horizon]

Like when I see my younger cousins, they seem to scrutinize my face, and they react differently when I am more "with it" because I don't know how to express affection towards children, don't like kids at all, but they're family. poor kids are probably so confused, like why does megan only hug us sometimes or whatever

[Olive branch]

I've noticed this too. Babies like Mercy (very odd) but not many other people. Animlas too seem to dislike me, but like some of the others.

Very weird.

On a seperate note, heard the voice whisper 'Sophie' again. Right in my ear I swear. :S

[hidingme]

I need advice.. sorta..maybe.. i dont know.

my friend took her husband to the hospital the other night.. and they stuck him in a hospital downtown for observation..

anyhow before they got in to the hospital she took him to this place next to it.. some psychriatic crisis place ..she said they wait for a socialworker then the psychiatrist came in to eval him.

she doesnt know what is really going on with me.. she is assuming its related to my anxiety.
anyhow place is lowcost and usually is for people with low income andno insurance. sounds great huh?
one catch.. they serve people in that county and im not in that county.
either is my friend but they saw him anyhow cause they were there and he wasnt well at all. but well she told me just to tell them i was in that county when i had a big anxiety problem so they will help me.. thing is how do i tell them ?

i mean think itll sound funny to walk in there and say" oh i happen to be here when sarah came out and started acting her age so i came here" and definately do not want to bring up sadie trying to hurt me or something .. i mean she hasnt been and well that would just prolly get me stuck in hospital too .. all i want is the eval tho.
i dont know what to do.

gonna try to call and actually talk to my dr and see what she says but ..freaking people never let me talk directly to her on the phone..it sucks big time!

any advice?
Hiding

[whirlpools]

Hiding, maybe you could just say you suffer from DID? Hopefully they will be trained enough to know what that means, and if not, they'll just ask and you can explain it. Take some written information if that would help.

I feel like I've been walking through some weird computer game all day. I can't get grounded and I feel awful. I don't know what's going on.