Triggering (Abuse) - dissociative distress thread

[shadow-light]

Sorry for vanishing, Jack supprised me with a trip to the cinema lol. Just got back :)


just quickly on the eye colour thing in general yes it's down to melolin but such things as how the lense and pupil are held can alter the colour slightly, for example my eyes are blue but I can consiously make them grey! (bit of a party trick I leant before I can even remember lol) . TThere are also rare condisions that can cause eyes to change even more radically, but these are not very well understood so I only touched upon them in my degree... Keep meaning to look into them in more detail but sort of lost interest in biology now



I own a film camera! In fact I own 2 lol, and 3 digital cameras and hopefully will soon have a D-SLR too :) (I like photography a bit too much)

[shadow-light]

got a question...



When you have a gap in your memory of a few years, and then you have a dream in which you are an age from within those years, is the dream symbolic or things that happened? Or is it symbolic of feelings from the time?

[hidingme]

tabi- tat sond col.. wis i culd se it.

[whirlpools]

What did you see, Hazel?

Hazel, I think most dreams are generally symbolic but can contain real facts and are usually representative of real feelings.

[foxfly]

Heh. I do so much baby stuff it's embarrassing. I'm glad I'm not totally alone! It really helps me feel comforted and secure which is something I pretty rarely feel. I've owned a pacifier too, insanitylives, and I suck my thumb pretty regularly. Also, baby blankets are the best!

[hidingme]

no i not wana eets babi foods cuz i no babi..
i hapi wif reel foods lik skettiosan ic creem.

as long as i has my mikeybare i ok to

Sarah

[Olive branch]

Sarah- tis cool. Very very cool. I'll make sure to make prints or something of the photos, so we can show you, if you want?

[hidingme]

i tri suk tumb onc i no liks it ,, mayb if it hav flavr it bes betr hehe

[hidingme]

tabi- yeh i wuld liks se it.. =)

[shadow-light]

don't know if I should say as don't want to trigger anyone...

The following content has been hidden - Reason : triggery

as untriggery as I can manage: basically I'm being forced to bath in something that isn't water by a group of people and behind these people there are children tied together...

been having it almost every night for 2 weeks

[hidingme]

tat scree dreem. i hops you not hav it tonit


Katie- i sori yous felig bad an los. hiding fels sad an los to mayb you talk to her cuz yall bes unerdstan chother?

[shadow-light]

someone just been really nasty on another site to me... i actually shaking... they say be my fault that me got raped

[Kitkat :)]

Hi how's everyone?

Just caught up on the pages I missed. Hopefully that Navas guy has gone now.

[Stellata]

Oks Sarah.

Hazel, I just replied to your thread about that.
It's NOT your fault.

[hidingme]

k well cuse my language...but that is f'ing lie. never your fault for something like that! how dare they!!!!
want me to go tell them off for you?id be more than happy to.
god- that pisses me off!

sorry they said that they are obvisiously idiots!
SADIE

[Stellata]

I always feel ashamed and guilty when my child self is forefront.
Does anyone else get this?
It's probably more of my continual fear of punishment, that she holds. Maybe.

[hidingme]

katie-
sometimes but then again sarah is my safe one.. she does get scared alot tho.
i mostly feel guilt and shame when ..i am me. *sigh* i suck.
Hiding

[Kitkat :)]

I read your thread too, it's absolutely disgusting that they said that.

Abuse is NEVER the victim's fault.

[hidingme]

itink i tri chat heer gin.. sadie an hiding says no but i wn to.

[hidingme]

yeh i findd out
i wen an somon tel me to typs rite
so i say igo sori an i leev it

i not undrstan wy pepls so meen me?
hmm.
it no fayr