Bad self image crisis.
Very insecure.
Fallen into anorexia stuff again.
Not feeling acceptable.
Trying to me a little girl so I can be acceptable in the past in the present.
Ugh.
Yeah.
My heart hurts.
Katie needs help.
But we shut out help from her, take her away. She not good enough. She never good enough.
OK, I wasn't planning on doing this. But we need an overhaul, now.
Kyle had the brilliant idea to go out at about 9:30am, when it's already 85*F/29.5*C and humid, without a drink or money to buy one. He also "forgot" to eat, again.
So we're leaving around noon, when it's hit 90*F/32*C, again without a drink and not having eaten all day.
What do you expect happened? We nearly passed out AGAIN. This is the third day in a row. Granted this is a heatwave, but this has got to stop.
Idiot. This is no way to attempt to get better.
I've forced some food and sport drinks down, and feel a bit better now. But seriously? You're 16, she's 13, he's 8 - there is NO way between the three of you that you don't know this stuff.
Sheesh.
-Tyler (Yeh. Name. Yay.)
maybe you could keep a bag packed with money and other essentials in it that can be picked up by whoever so that things are always remembered? THat's what we've started doing
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
Sorry you are all feeling lost. I must admit I am too. I didn't realise there were so many of them in there. Is it your job to control Onyx alone, or are there others who can help?
You are talking to: Kat The Others are: Annabell (Belle), Rosie, Lotty, Kate, Amy, Jessica (Jess), Sarah, Ramiel(Miel), Elizabeth (Liz), Shadow
I'm sorry everyone's having such a hard time, and Kathryn, I'm sorry your alters are multiplying so quickly, it must be difficult, you've had to deal with three new people in two weeks.
Katnovia: Don't worry too much about Sarah, try to talk to her about what's stressing her and try to dissuade her if you can from posting on here when she might be abusive, as you know this thread can be senstive. (Please don't take this badly.... )
Tabitha.
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Neither did Kathryn, we just seem to be popping up like springs.
It's not really my function... I am the being of numbness, so I numb Kathryn when her emotions overwhelm her or when one of the others do... So it is kinda my job, in an indirect way.
There's Skye, but she can only just about handle Ayka, and Onyx is far worse... Even Ayka and Crystal have taken a back seat since she's been around.
this may be an odd question but I just had an odd experiance and I'm wondering if it;s dissociation related or something else... Has anyone else ever looked in the mirror and being scared to the point of screaming because you didn'trecognise the person looking back (i.e. your reflection)?
Shadow-light: We have never screamed, however we have had halluenations that the person in the mirror is screaming, hitting things, tearing out their hair, though we physically are not.
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umm..ok well wanna comment to alot of ppl but too much to go back and comment on. im sorry.. today at work went ok i guess .. we took out journal as we do everyday and we all wrote in it. sarah drew a picture of herself holding mikey bear.. she is scared. sadie was just umm sadie.. but the worst part was when i wrote in my part sadie butted in and we argued on paper.. weird. she was quite mad at me.
other than that its been pretty quiet inside.. i cant really hear them today..just can feel sarah being scared and sadie being mad and trying to ignore me,.. hell yeah im trying to ignore your ass! you are feeding your anxiety and fear over to Sarah and me and it isnt right! 1- i have no idea how to deal with that or how to stop it or even make it better so i end up pissed off as you dwell in it and do try to stop it. you also let it scare sarah to death and that isnt fair either and she is only SIX!! just calm the hell down and get the **** over it!
man- this is crazy- i am crazy.I dont know why my anxiety overflows to sadie and sarah I wish it didnt it would make things easier for them and then maybe we could function easier. I feel like such a loser for not being able to control my own emotions..
Erin just numbs everything, if a person cannnot deal she can just take away all emotion, all feeling. I hope you are alright- I'm sorry I cannot use your name... :S
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