Triggering (Abuse) - dissociative distress thread - Page 169

Kitkat :) · 06-07-2010, 07:03 PM

I can imagine what my alters would look like, if that's what you mean.

What hurts Hannah?

How's everyone doing?

Kitkat :) · 06-07-2010, 07:05 PM

What would you want them to send a message about?

It's okay if you don't have a name, I have one that has remained nameless but has said that they are the being of numbness.

DestroyMe · 06-07-2010, 07:10 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by [Emma]

can anyone else see their alters externally? like a semi-hallucination.

I can..it's weird because they all have very differnt ways of dressing then I do.
it get's confusing after a while though.

I don't like being around people, I know they're not gunna hurt me, but we're going to a public place for the movies and I don't like that..I have agoraphobia...

Kitkat :) · 06-07-2010, 07:17 PM

I know how you feel, some of them all want to dress differently and if I'm out in what I like to wear some of them aren't happy and feel really uncomfortable in the clothes I'm wearing.

Kitkat :) · 06-07-2010, 07:18 PM

Rala - I don't like people either, but then I am concerned that they're going to hurt me.

Kitkat :) · 06-07-2010, 09:12 PM

There is a lot of destructiveness within the system at the moment.
Kathryn is not coping so well, and unfortunately I feel unable to do anything. I can't seem to get anyone to help, Skye hasn't been around, and Holly and Sapphire aren't really sure what to do.
Plans are being made, horrible plans, to alienate Kathryn, to isolate her, to ruin her.

I will try my best.

l.e.g.o · 06-07-2010, 09:15 PM

curls up
me no like

Kitkat :) · 06-07-2010, 10:58 PM

What don't you like?

Kitkat :) · 07-07-2010, 01:24 AM

The urges to SI got too much for Kathryn to handle, so I had to take over.

Now she's just numbed, and isn't feeling anything...

shadow-light · 07-07-2010, 01:58 AM

inspector will be here in 8 hours

seriously freaking out a little lol. Hopefully we will pass though...

DestroyMe · 07-07-2010, 02:20 AM

*panicks*
I move tomorow....
*scared face*

DestroyMe · 07-07-2010, 02:25 AM

I haven't seen my dad in 4 years...
and we were never exactly on good terms
and he's picking me up at the airport..
*curls up*

DestroyMe · 07-07-2010, 02:34 AM

uh...from what I've talked to him..yeah but I'n still scared.

DestroyMe · 07-07-2010, 02:41 AM

I lived with him for 6 years and I've met him yeah
but we weren't really on good terms the last time I saw him

hidingme · 07-07-2010, 02:46 AM

ok well I cant reply alot to people tonight and i apologize for that.. (I may be angry and speak my mind but im not rude without reason)

Hiding is not allowed out right now and im having trouble keeping her in ..or rather away from the front and looking at what we are doing.

Iam very angry at the husband mike for not looking for work more lately.
we really want to cut down to part time at work or quit and stay home cause this all is too much to handle w.o knowing what is really going on with us.
Ive been good tho havent blown up at him yet.. trying to give him a chance the rest of this week to show he is really trying.
Hiding hates confrontation of anykind and hate arguing and fighting and people mad at us ..so im trying to be good and hold off a bit cause I dont want to be the one to upset her.
Hiding forces her emotions on me alot and I REALLY hate it cause I dont know how to deal with them..
daughter spilled an entire glass of tea on our lap top..surprisingly i didnt freak too bad.. and luckily it seems to be working ok..

i think we have an infection in our jaw and it is triggering our TMJ really badly. we are not good with pain at all.
took 2 aleve around 6pm and took 2 more at 8:30pm.. still killing me.

i am just so freakin tired.. tired of work..tired of hurting..tired of everything being bad..tired of being broken.. cant even do very much for daughters birthday which is thursday..
i am just tired ..of everything ..of life.

SADIE

bleeding black · 07-07-2010, 08:22 AM

Hey there,
You don't have a name at the moment do you? That's ok. My name is Ash, I'm from the lostboys.
I don't think you will scare anyone.
Kyle reads this thread, so if you want to write here he will be able to read it and respond. Or you could find some paper and write a letter to leave for him to find. I think it's good that you have been watching, having a look at where you are what kyle and the others are doing - familiarizing, that's good. What do you think?
Hope you are doing ok
Ash - lostboys

Kitkat :) · 07-07-2010, 01:05 PM

You're right, this is an okay place to talk, or like Lostboys suggested you could all keep a diary and that would make sure that you all communicated with one another.

hidingme · 07-07-2010, 01:29 PM

Insanity lives-
no my current husband doesnt hurt us. ..in fact he is very good to me/us. we are all just stressed about $ and working and well yeah Sadie is pretty mad.
I am horribly scared and nervous today. today my primary care dr. come back to the office and i print out my letter to her about my mental..umm health and about sadie and sarah..since i cant seem to bring myself to tell her face to face.
i put it in an envelope and while hubby is out today job hunting. i asked him to take it to her and hand it to her himself.
i am soo sooo soo scared and nervous.
also tomorrow is my daughter's 13th bday.. she is going to have afriend spend the night so sadie, sarah and I are going to need to be really careful to hide who is out and whenwhile she is here. esp. since I went to school with her mother.
man anxiety is really really high today. uggh.
Hiding

hidingme · 07-07-2010, 01:59 PM

its ok ..not all of that was for just one cerain person alot was just me venting my anxiety...
yeah it should be ok no worries about boys either.

im mostly freaking out aboutdr getting my letter.. im terrified.. trying to calm down but not working too good ..maybe sadie will come handle work for me today.. i dont know..

scared to death..

Stellata · 07-07-2010, 04:02 PM

How can I get myself back?
Please?