I'm glad you've got something that can help with the anxiety at least, and I hope these feelings ease off quickly.
I have a 'care co-ordinater' that I meet with maybe once a month for about 5 minutes, during which he just tells me that he's not heard from the psych people and I have to wait a bit longer. I'm not entirely sure why his job exists, 'cause I already know I have to wait longer, I'd figured that out from the lack of letters from the psych people.
And I have a psychiatrist that I haven't seen in a few months and all she'll do is want to put me on medication again which I don't particularly want...
For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know… we’re not what we’ve seen
For this dance we’ll move with each other
There ain’t no other step than one foot
Right in front of the other
we all thank you Hannah *even tho Sarah is asleep* think ive finally graduated from calling her the brat unless she is getting on my nerves ha!
guess we need to work on the letter to our primary care dr. today. she comes back on the 7th and well guess we have no choice but to tell her aqbout us to try to get help. this idea makes Lisa very anxious and scared .. cause we know reg drs aren't usually understanding with this stuff and well she doesnt wanna be judged. but at least its a letter and not face to face explaining it.
This never ending rain sucks! took muscle relaxer last night and STILL have a muscle in back, shoulder and neck hurting bad ..ugh..
Had a bad dream last night about husband cheating on us. it wasour current husband with ex's 2nd wife. *shrug* i dont know. anxiety I guess.
anyhow- hang in there everyone..somehow things will get better..it has too.. think Hiding's thoughts are seeping into mine cause well i dont really believe that ha! yeah well we will check back in tonight after a long boring rainy day at work,, hope we can stay awake. SADIE (w/Hiding)
we had an unexpected flat inspection today... suffice to say we failed... Doesn't help that Michelle had a bit of a breakdown on Monday and recked the place, Rachel tried to tidy it all but we struggle with housework as we start hearing in mind "you fail as a woman" "you got that wrong" "it's not good enough" "you're a useless failure", etc. and it results in crying and SI... Then after the inspection someone decided that sitting in the shower with the water ruinning fully clothed was a good idea... and then to lay on the bed making it soked while yelling at Jack when he tried to find out what was wrong... not good day so far
Scath - Yeah my care co-ordinator isn't the most helpful person in the world... Keep the pressure on though. I used to call mine like every day and every time she came round I'd tell her how much I was struggling, and eventually I got the therapy. It's hard though because mental health services don't have the funding or staff - but that's not your fault and you shouldn't have to wait so long to get help. Hang in there hun.
Sadie - Sorry about the bad dream, sounds upsetting. Good luck writing the letter, what's your doctor like? Some GPs are really great with mental health issues, so don't worry. Mine's really supportive, though it took me a few changes of doctor to get him. Remember that you deserve help and support and understanding - you are worth it!!
Hazel - *Cuddles*. Sorry you're having such a bad day. Hope it improves... Thinking of you.
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I just went to the gym. I'm feeling so down today. And it doesn't help that me and my boyfriend had a bit of a row and I just feel, I don't know, despondent about the whole thing.
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
Friends are coming to pick us up today...
really don't want to go because we thought it was tomorow
and I'm in no mood to deal with people at all today.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
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Hannah~ Our dr is really good concerning our anxiety problems.. but that is all she knows about.. she is nice and helpful with other issues like when grandpa was so sick and almost didnt pull thru. but really not sure about this. Started on the letter for her today.. hope to try to finish it this weekend maybe. will see how things go. Thanks SADIE
hope everyone doing ok. don't have the brain power to read all the posts right now. struggling with michelle a bit, she is acting out a lot: keeps breaking things, yelling at people and even threatening people... a bit scared that she is going to get us into trouble
not sure why she is angry... not sure will find out until she calms down a bit, but she keeps breaking things and attacking people and really scaring me
people can not be damaged goods, we can be hurt and in pain, but we are not "damaged goods". we are more than the sub of our experiances, we are more than the abuse
no matter what you or anyone else says I'm afraid I will not agree. Noone is damaged goods, and bad things happening does not make the person bad nor does it mean they deserved those things
can dissociation cause actual physical numbness/tingling, specifically in your hands/feet. i've noticed when i'm zoning out that lately that has been accompanying it. happened just now when i hinted at something bad that happened to someone.
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