ok well im not expert but here is my and hiding's thoughts..
have an internal meeting.. whether yall take turn writing on paper back n forth or whatever and get every ones opinion.. see if yall can compromise somehow.
Just so tired of all this. My mind my memories. Flashbacks switching dissociating self harming starving. Its no way to live. Just losing the strength for it all. Im going to try and sleep. Hope everyone has an ok night and stays safe. *Leaves hugs*.
* big safe hugs* hannah . hang in there sweetie. not sure how you can stop the flashbacks.. wish i could help there.. i know if we can calm down enough to try to sit and read the others listen (like watching amovie but better) and we all calm down.. maybe give it a try.. try things that help you remember where you are now and that you are safe now. and you arent whining hon. *hugs* Hiding
allie went to hospital gave her a plan b pill they dont know for shure if it will work god i hope so...
I have a couple alters... sarah - can be mean but nice, 13
Secret - lil but mature nice to everyone really good typer, 5 almost 7 (i know she skipped an age she wanted to skip six bad bad memories)
winter - my newest alter sweet motherly caring, 29
Hannah -- It's okay, you're not whining. I read your thread, and you're having such a hard time it's unbelievable *gentle squeezes*
We can't say a whole lot about the transgendered issue, except that we do understand a little, and hope it work out for everyone.
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Mishka (the new alter of ambivalent gender) is extremely upset. His whole existence is to keep the secret about the abuse, but the secret is out. He really wants to self-harm, and Black is with him. The older ones are trying to prevent harm to the body, but we're getting flashbacks and he's really fighting to get out...
Secret secret secret secret why is the secret out secret secret secret useless secret secret secret secret secret
My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :)
I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.
hang in there pale.. sorry things are tough and Mishka is upset. Is your secret safe with those who do know it? if so- try remindig them of that.. i know it prolly wont help alot but worth a try.. stay safe Hiding
Thank you Hiding. Mishka managed to force himself out and rampaged for a while, but he got him back in with minimal damage to the body, as he did manage to self-harm while out. We're okay, though.
Everyone is just shaken and wondering if it was a good idea to try and get in touch with him.
My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :)
I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.
flying[star] - we've only got a couple of teenage girls (that I know of) who like the body as it is. There's are some younger children who aren't very vocal either way, but wish they had their 'bodies' (so before puberty type bodies, not obviously female). Then there are quite a few guys, and a few other neutrois (neutral gendered) people like me. If we went on a majority vote, then our system would probably decide to transition to a more neutral standpoint. Which means 'top' surgery definitely, but not 'bottom' surgery.
But how do we convince medical people that we need this...? Dilemma.
Kyle's right.
um... is there anythin offical about the mutiple peoples.
cuz if there ain't just quietly don't mention it.
not like everyone does bottom anyway. .
but with the girls.. hm.
how do they feel about not having boobs?
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ok well im not expert but here is my and hiding's thoughts..
have an internal meeting.. whether yall take turn writing on paper back n forth or whatever and get every ones opinion.. see if yall can compromise somehow.
ya probably the best idea. let everyone talk - or a few people at a time if it's too many to all go - and figure out some compromize..
I don't really want to be a bother. i can't tell whether I'm like this or not. I just sort of wondered if anyone would be willing to listen to what is in my head and tell me if it is this or something else. I don't know.
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♥♥♥♥♥♥"It has been said that time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain.
In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone."
there's no alters with me that i'm aware of. i mean i dissociate (i suppose that's what it is) and act very differently, but i don't see that as separate from me at all. just a different form of me. so you're not out of place at all.
started feeling zoned out tonight. not sure if i should even worry about it. i think it might've been cause i looked up some forms of abuse and was reading about it. i'm not sure why i was stupid enough to look it up. the ones regarding child emotional abuse really set me off. then i went to a restaurant and it was with my mom & sister's church friends. which is normally fine but them talking more religiously than normal plus the fact that a lot of the issues with my childhood regarded religion added to me stupidly reading about that stuff probably set it off.
but i can't spend my whole life avoiding things, but i can't overly trigger myself or live in the past...
does anyone think having like an alters thread or a DID related support theread might be a good idea rather than them taking over here? I can understand how uncomfortable it will make those without alters, and dissociaition is on such a large spectrum that I don't want to end up making so many people uncomfortable...
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