so sick of blanking out, not knowing if i don't remember something from the last few minutes/hours/etc. stupid memories/dreams, etc. trying to just cope with it and then move on though.
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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I know how you feel. It irritates me too.
Have you tried keeping a diary to help you keep track of things? This has been recommended to me, and I'm going to... But I just keep forgetting. Still, it's not the end of the world, there's always tomorrow.
i was doing a food/sleep/mood diary when i was seeing a counselor. but it stressed me out trying to remember everything to put on it cause even remembering what happened in the last day could be difficult. plus i've decided not to see her now (maybe another counselor eventually, not sure), so i haven't done it in the last week.
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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Yeah I know what you mean.
I also find it hard to keep a diary because writing it all down triggers me something terrible, which is why I stopped keeping a diary after my boyfriend broke up with me, before then I'd managed to keep one for 2/3 years. Since then I've tried to start about 3 diaries but I just get lazy or I get too upset and I can't carry on with it.
ye, we have Ivy who's a cat and I've been told there is a wolf too. Luna is also not technically human-human, but not sure if there is a name for what she is
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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Oh I see... Well, maybe there is, you could google something like that. It might come up in old folklore or something.
Maybe she's a werewolf? That would be coincidental as her name's Luna too.
Yeah I would too if one of my alters was a dog or something.
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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I thought so...
In my old school they used to have Manga and stuff and I remember seeing drawings of half cat half human.
Does she/you feel happier now that she has a proper name?
kathryn~
im sorry you are living with her that makes it harder.im sorry.
i still have things that people tell me that echos and haunts me in my head whether i see them or not.
ithere are things my mom said, my dad, my grandpa(grandpa was recent- yesterday) and esp. things my ex husband used to say to me.
i hope that what she said wont echo or haunt your mind very long.. mine seems to last for years and years. and i really hope it doesnt happen like that for you hon.
Hiding
you no sond crazi
hiding and me dont shov eechotr asid mos tims..but hiding do pshme away sometim wen she get reely mad
but well rite now we feels los and confusd and scard and crazi too
Shadow,
Yeah we have a number of non human alters, puppies, wolves, pixies and a female alter who is the embodiment of insanity.
It isn't abnormal at all, though it can make you feel that way.
We've woken up in the morning finding ourselves in the dog's kennel outside (in the cold) wearing boxers and covered in dirt.
In DID nothing is 'wrong' or 'abnormal'. Our minds did whatever they saw best at any given time, every alter has a reason for being the way they are. It's actually quite common to have non-human alters.
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We have T in under an hour, which should be good. Though not feeling that connected to external things at the moment, sort of running through the motions, numb. Not an uncomfortable numb, just numb. We haven't seen her since a couple of days before discharge from hospital, so there is probably a lot to tell her :S
Ash is worried about his mum, her work situation is screwed up, she has a colleague that makes it hell and is behaving like a child. The stress has caused her to lose weight to the point she was lighter than us. When her and my step dad went to China, she was able to eat normally and keep it in, and put on weight, since she has been home she hasn't been able to eat much, or keep it and has lost all the weight again :(
