Triggering (Abuse) - dissociative distress thread

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Plum maybe you could try a different safer way to be clean? Have a nice bubbly bath? Or you could write or draw to get the feelings out another way? Big hugs. Thank you everyone for understanding about the ed stuff, hide boxes is a good idea Kitkat are you able to talk to your mum? Sometimes i find being open helps to ease the constant anxiety of being found out. Im feeling really on edge right now having to do lots of obsessive mental rituals Urgh.

[flying[star]]

hannah its ok. sometimes the ed stuff just gets to be more than you can handle, its realy intrustive that way.

[hidingme]

hi i jus wana say i mayb not pos heer anymor cuz i get in trubl in chat for not typin big or spelig good. so ileevd chat.. and now i frade tat tey telme sam for forums pos. i not wan tem to tel me tat so mayb i not pos no mor heer but i dos have yaho if sombodi wana talk ther and you can pm me to ok?
*scard and hides*

[flying[star]]

sarah no one's going to get mad at you for not spellin good over here.

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Dont be scared *hugs* i think its fine for you to post here, i cant speak for anyone else but its fine by me Flyingstar thanks for understanding. Anorexia rules my life to be honest. Im in ed therapy but im so easily triggered at the moment. Its crap.

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Originally Posted by banana89

Also I don't want to offend anyone... But I'm struggling with anorexia and I'm finding some of the eating and weight related posts on this thread very triggering... I know the rules on eating stuff aren't as strict in the Mental Health section aren't as strict as in Eating Disorders so I know this might be unreasonable of me... I just thought I'd mention that some of this is very triggering because I know I'm not the only one with eating issues here. I'm really sorry if this sounds harsh or anything, I don't mean it to at all and I don't want to offend anyone or make it like people can't post about what they are worried about... It just made me upset :-[ Sorry.

I was getting a little triggered by it too... though I didn't have the guts to say so

[hidingme]

ok
i stay unles tey tel me not lowed ok? tank you.

bananas- we not has Ed but we has lots frends tat has bof kinds. it reely hard for tem. I sori you be trigrd it really no fun bes trigrd. if we can help you pees tel us ok?

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im glad i did say then. I was so scared id offend someone but this needs to be safe for everyone. You doing ok tonight?

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Thank you Sarah. Yeah it is really hard, but im ok. Thanks xxx

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semi-ok... been playing computer games for the last few hours :) but ack has stolen the desktop :/ so no more game playing lol. Otherwise I'm just stressed and scared and dreading August.


How's everyone else doing?

[hidingme]

can i as wy dred agust? i dred all summr times and septembr too cuz last yer IKE comd . and eye of hurcane camd ovr us. i ..or hiding,, had at lees 7 anxity attaks tat nite.an evr sinc storms scar us bad and we so scard nothr hurcan com.

so we can unrstand wy mayb august bes scaree.

shadow- you has a sarah too?
my nam bes sarah =) sarah bes good nam!

[Kitkat :)]

I just spoke to my Mum and it didn't go well.
My Mum basically said she doesn't understand me, doesn't thinking I'm helping myself, doesn't know what to do to help me and that most nights she wants to go to sleep and never wake up.

I really wish I hadn't had that conversation it hurts to hear those things, she kept telling me that I should think about her and how she feels but I can't do that all the time....

I don't want to be alive, but I don't want to die, I just want to have never existed it hurts...

[flying[star]]

hannah&hazle: you guys sholda spoken up sooner. can't speak for anyone else but idve started using the hide boxes sooner if i knew it was bothering people

we're OK. past few bits have been everyone realy idk..me and kyle cant decide whos gona keep control so w/e. it's fine, were just stressed

[Kitkat :)]

Sorry I didn't realise Ayka was triggering you two

[shadow-light]

Dreading august because on august the 15th we loose our home and have nowhere to go :(


Ye we have a Sarah :) she is 16. You're right it is a good name

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Sarah sorry to hear about what you went through, that sounds horrid. Hazel are you getting anywhere with the august things? Hope youre coping ok with it all. Kathryn im so sorry to hear how your mum reacted *supportive hugs* does she know much about what you are going through? I think it can be very tough for those who love us to see us self destruct and being in so much pain, and its hard to understand. Nevertheless i wish she had been more sympathetic. Sending you my support x

[Kitkat :)]

I tried to explain but it didn't work, she couldn't understand I wish she had too I can't cope with this, I wish I had never bloody existed and her life would be so much better.

She sometimes wants to go to sleep and never wake up because of me But she doesn't want me to do anything stupid, but she'd be better off if I died... I feel so trapped

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nope not got anywhere yet... spoke to my moum the other day about it as I really need a gurantor but she said that "it's my own fault" and that she "wasn't going to bail me out of it" :( I've spoken to so many estate agents and housing assosiations, but no joy so far... they all keep saying that I'm going to be "volunterially homeless" (why would anyone be homeless on purpose???) and that I don't have a "local connection" to their council so they have no legal need to help me

[hidingme]

shado- i so sori bout tat i waz basicly homeless befor too it suks.. no frends sta wif? i wish we culd helpps you, *saf hugs*

kikat- i so so sori bout you mommee.. sond lik hers needs depreson medsin. i wisher not tel you thos tings it not good for you. you need fokus on you self. tak car you ok? *saf hugs*

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I've asked everone I can think of, none will help. Will be my 3rd time on the streets starting to wonder if the universe is trying to tell e that I belong there