One of my aunts said that if I were her child she'd have drowned me at birth back in 06.
After that, it was my first overdose, which led to many more.
She said I'm a psycho too.
My other aunt said I'm a psycho as well & my other aunt did as well, (common word to call me in this "family").
This aunt also handed me a glass & said to cut myself.
She has done a lot of things to me because of my MH problems.
Said it's my fault my mother drinks & has depression etc too.
My "sister"... eurgh, she's physically abused me, emotionally abused me, verbally abused me & just, I don't even want to think about the things she's done & said to me, it's very painful & distressing. I'll try to talk about it later on if I can... I'm sorry.
My mother is an alcoholic & she has neglected & abused me since I was very young.
She's said I'm a mistake & it's my fault she drinks & she threatens to put me in a psych ward where I "belong" & in foster care & she thinks I'm an attention seeker because of my self harming & numerous suicide attempts, & just, so many things, she neglects me emotionally & can't provide for my emotional needs, & I was on the child protection register under emotional neglect because of all of this. :/
She has also hurt me physically.
My cousin is pretty much the same, she's called me so many vile things, & she's threatened me a lot, & she's ... not even a cousin to me, she's just... like the rest of them.
*goes in the corner & hides*
&thank you baby girl. But I did deserve it & still do.
. And about the sexuality thing? It's common for people who are in the closet to abuse children of the same gender,
Thank you for your support, but I just wanted to query this statement. Is it actually common for closeted people to abuse children? I'm not sure that it is. I didn't think being gay had anything to do with your likelihood to abuse children. Do you have any links to any information that can back that up? It's rather a worrying statement.
Thanks for your support though it's very kind of you, and I don't mean to be a bitch by querying it.
eugh, I hate trains too... Which is a pain when you live in Aberdeen but most of your friends and family live 350miles away in York... In fact got to get that evl 5-6 hour train journey tomorrow :( but it's going homewards so hopefully can focus on that... and after the first 50 mins Jack will b on the train
I'm never heard a link between sexuality and abusers, howeer, many abusers have self-esteme issues or pent up anger/frustration, and I guess being in the clorset could maybe cause a lot of fustration, etc. which could come out in the form of abuse
It's not your fault Sarah, you don't desreve any of that stuff. No one deserves to be called horrible names or hurt in any way. And no kid can cause their mom to behave that way, but moms behaving that way can make their kids hurt inside and hurt themselves. *hugs gently* You did a really good job talking honey, and you're welcome to share anything else you want.
Rosy, I should have phrased that better, I sort of reversed it. What I meant was that often, people who abuse children of the same gender are often closeted homosexuals. Being gay doesn't make people abuse children more than straight people, but when it's the same gender, that's often a reason. Being openly gay allows someone to project their sexual feelings properly on another adult. Anyway. Does that make more sense?
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
troubleshooter, thank you so much.
*hugs back gently*
I'll talk about what my "sister" has done/said to me later on(feeling very poorly atm) & I'll refer to her as "C" not "sister" because I honestly can't believe we even share the same blood, let alone her being biologically supposed to be "sister".
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
Join Date: Oct 2009
I am currently:
My cousin wants to come over.
She wants to come over.
HOW DARE SHE WANT TO STEP FOOT IN MY HOUSE.
She's not coming in.
My Mum has banned her, she knows what she did to me.
two of my abusers were female one my mum the other my aunt
right now i cant talk about what they did, i have never really spoke about it, i want to start talking about it but i dont feel like i can.
i never thought i would ever be ready to talk about it not this anyway but somedays all i want to do is to beable to talk about it im just not sure how or how ready i need to be.
