the zoning out I can handle, along with headaches, etc... they are almost "normal" to me now lol
but all these other things I am struggling with. Esspecally the aching and dizziness as they are getting in the way of everything... constantly feeling tired too...
tired to get a doctors appointment, but they don't have any avaliable until may
Hello to everyone. Bleeding black: that sounds really tight. Have you figured out who was upset yet? Can you communicate with your alters? That might help to ease the hurt at least part of you is feeling!
Shadow: I get that sort of thing when I don't SI for a while. Though I would still recommend the doctors to be honest.
Sophie-Mercy: Integrated/ getting used to each other. Host
Tracy: I don't really know her, but she's 6 and 3/4s.
Ava, counts to ten or three depending on how badly she is doing. Young
Erin: In charge, Erin doesn't feel anything, she just is. Always.
Hey guys.
Mandi,
Thanks yeah we are in a bit of pain. I can communicate with about 14, which is like an eighth of them, but not whoever cut. So it can make managing these things difficult.
Shadow, sorry to hear about the infection, how are you feeling at the moment? How have you been?
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Hey Bleeding Black I've commented before you came back, I was getting help with my splitting cos I didn't know what was happening.
Hope you're okay, after what happemed
other than been in pain and feeling general ill I'm ok lol. Although my partner is forcing me to stay in bed due to "being ill" and it's driving me a bit mad... hate inactivity
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Lol, that must be rather annoying...
You could do something while you're in bed, like... Draw or something?
I'm writing in this colour to tell you this isn't Kathryn, she's been away for a while and that it's Skye.
Just so you know, and don't get confused (:
I have been hearing 'voices' well thoughts that come out of the blue and don't seem to belong to me, of the two major one's one is called Lyla, the other one doesn't have a name.
Lyla tells me I'm ugly and need to hurt myself and die, the other one doesn't say much.
ALready posted a thread about this but thought I'd just post on here aswell to see if anyone thought this was something disassociative..
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You took my advice :)
Can you let Lyla talk through you?
Ayka would be happy to talk to her... And maybe one of my others could talk to the one who doesn't have a name yet
We had friends round today :) . But now feeling odd... like everything is in slow motion and everything is louder and brighter than it should be
had it before, can't remember what it ended up being. It's annoying though, esspecialy as my partner is plning a computer game with loud shoooting noices :(
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Not that great.
Ayka was really mad today, I almost assualted my friends... and people I didn't know because of her. I managed to ignore her, but that made her madder... As it does. Skye wasn't around to calm her down, which was a shame.
All of my memories seem like a blur, and I'm not sure if they really happened... I'm not sure if anythings real... I feel apart from myself.
I don't recognise this room I'm in. I know its my bedroom, but are these my posters? When did I buy them?
I don't know... everythings confusing today.
eugh, I hate memories like that... the ones that you are not sure about sort of call all the ones you think you can be sure of into doubt... Generally now I try to ignore any and all memories as otherwise end up dwellig on them trying to work out what was and wasn't real and it gets confusing, and to be frank depressing as I realise jus how little of "my" life I was actually "there" for
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Yeah they're the ones
Unfortunarely my whole life seems to be like that...
I'll try not to think about it, I should probably just go to sleep now, try and get it off my mind...
