How am i still Alive. I broke down And killed myself. But yet I still Woke up In the hospital. I did everything right. I even left a note saying not to recesitate me. And yet the did. Why couldnt they just let me die when pumping my stomach. Does anyone know if its ok for them to bring me back. When i say not to.
Last edited by Mrs Sam : 26-02-2008 at 02:50 PM.
Reason: added appropriate trigger label
I am back to what i was, Only thing that changed is what i am.
im sorry to hear how bad things got.
u have another chance tho.
change things in ur life that are making you unhappy!
do what you want to do.
open up to ppl and tell them y things got so bad and how they can help.
suicide is forver. x
i'm glad you have been given another chance.....as far as i am aware, suicides are always resusicated because things can always be worked on and changed. If you are really unhappy about it then i suggest you write a letter to the hospital asking about their policy on suicide.
"Has anyone seen my contact lens? It may be stuckto a tree or a rock or something. Oh boy, I am so grounded" Family Guy
if everyone cared and nobody cried, if everyone loved and nobody lied, if everyone shared and swallowed their pride, we'd see the day that nobody died
Well It seems that no matter. What direction i choose it all leads to the same out come. Maybe Its just The dreams im having. Or the fact that im alone And back to what i was. Either way my futur seems bleak
I am back to what i was, Only thing that changed is what i am.
The same thing happened to me. I woke up and cardiac icu after a suicide attempt. I woke up and got angry and violent they called security on me I ended up with tons of bruises. Did you get angry?
Are you mad at the hospital for stopping you? I was angry for a long long time. My boyfriend died and I was ready to go. Over time I got over it.
Lately I have been depressed for different reasons, being bipolar and never having anything to do. I cut a couple of hours ago, so that doesn't make me a good choice for advice . I will say to give yourself time to sort out all that happened before you make any more decisions. ~~~Liandre
Well in order to Understand my dreams. Youd have to know my past. To sum it up, My entire life was dedicated to dieng alone. Or just dieng in general. Ive felt love before but none was returned. And when i met her I fell in love. But after so long u tend to ignore ur feelings. Then she feel in love with me. For 2 years all i fealt was happiness and my mind set changed. Then 2 months ago she dumped me for someone else. She said that twards the end she was only with me. So she wouldnt be alone. I just couldnt understand why u would stay if u stoped loving. If she told me when she started having doubts it might have been diffrent. But i tried to get her back i tried to prove myself to her. Just made things worse. She said she would waite for me. Now she says i have no chance. The guy she said she felt nothing for, Now says she loves. Im so fucking confused. And im back to being alone. I still feel love for her. But hate her at the same time. Ive collected so much intel, And my dreams varie they tell me to act. And some tell me to die, The majority just haunt me. Show me the love thats not there. Reminding me that i will always wake up alone. So hard to deal with, So many paths to choose. All of which lead to the same fate. All i have is time and death. And i cant stand the time. Its good people care. But im not one to get attched to in anyway shape or form. Im back to what i was, And i killed who i am. All thats left is instinct and pain. Memories that seem so distant but refuse to fade.
I am back to what i was, Only thing that changed is what i am.
