I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I know you won't pay the slightest bit of attention to this, but conveniently I like the sound of my own voice, so it won't be all in vain.
I started self harming because I couldn't express my sadness to anyone. I wanted someone to notice and look after me. I started off scratching myself, leaving marks that only remained for a few days.
No one looked after me. No one cared. I lost one friend after another, I lost my future career, I lost my hobbies, I lost my hope. Wounds started to take weeks, not hours to heal, scars take years, not weeks to heal. I am covered in scars and will probably not be able to wear a t shirt in front of my parents for about ten years, despite stopping self harming four months ago.
And guess what, I'd say I was one of the least 'bad' self-harmers on this site.
Literally, I feel like screaming at the screen to make you stop self harming now.
I SI mainly by bruising myself although I used to cut.
For me, harming is a way to get relief from overwhelming feelings. It also serves as a way to validate my emotional pain. Bruises and cuts prove my pain matters. Harming is a way to vent feelings I can't express. And it's about control. When things feel out of control, hurting myself comforts me because it's something I can do something about. I started harming to deal with overwhelming feeling/ stress due to medical issues. Then went back to it after my friend's death and other things.
For a time I didn't want to stop. But when a couple bruises turned into more and got bigger, it was time to admit that my SI was getting out of control. So it was either choose recovery or wind up six feet under.
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i no but its really hard when they'er all mixed up with other bits and some dont have them
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Do you want help stopping or new ideas with which to harm yourself?
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Originally Posted by Narcissa
How do you feel reading other people's stories?
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Originally Posted by ccjg
You DO want to stop don't you??
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Originally Posted by shadow-light
1. Do you want to stop self-harm?
2. Can you list some reasons to stop self-harming?
3. How do you think we can help you to stop-self harming
4. Are you going to contact your doctor?
5. Do you know what to say to the doctor when you see them?
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Originally Posted by Alpha Bitch
What would you want with a baby? You're not even capable of looking after yourself, how would you look after someone else who depends on you?????
I know you won't pay the slightest bit of attention to this, but conveniently I like the sound of my own voice, so it won't be all in vain.
I started self harming because I couldn't express my sadness to anyone. I wanted someone to notice and look after me. I started off scratching myself, leaving marks that only remained for a few days.
No one looked after me. No one cared. I lost one friend after another, I lost my future career, I lost my hobbies, I lost my hope. Wounds started to take weeks, not hours to heal, scars take years, not weeks to heal. I am covered in scars and will probably not be able to wear a t shirt in front of my parents for about ten years, despite stopping self harming four months ago.
And guess what, I'd say I was one of the least 'bad' self-harmers on this site.
Literally, I feel like screaming at the screen to make you stop self harming now.
Get out while you can.
well now i understand all that
and dont take this the wrong way but u cant hear yourself talk cos your typing
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
bellatrix - yess
narissa - i dont like it and dont feel like their is anything i can do
ccjg - yess i do
shadow light
1.yess
2. scars, might go wrong, others dont like it
3. I honestly dont no
4. im going to contact someone on friday
5. not a ****ing clue
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
This is pissing me off no end. Just for reference, i have a thread, and to my knowledge so do at least four of the other FIFTEEN people reading this thread, and im pretty sure we started the, because wed like some support too. What is it about this oarticular situation thats got everyone leaping in to help?
He was no longer jean valjean but no. 24601 -les miserable
Some of life's mysteries will never be solved, such as why, after spending an entire evening listenong to Bach, do I find myself humming "the birdie song".......
I am reaching, but i fall, and the stars are black and cold, as i stare into the void of a world that cannot hold- les miserables
The reason it sounds really hard is because is is damn hard to raise a baby - you're not talking about a goldfish here...this is a person who will need looking after all day every day for at least 12 years and still much more looking after for the next 10 or so years. To be quite honest if you had a baby now I would hope social services would take it off you.
I'm glad you finally answered the questions.
Always seem to get things just that little bit wrong.
"don't wish, don't start, wishing only wounds the heart"
Honestly Alex, part of me really wants to believe that I might be able to make a difference here and convince someone not to go down a horribly dangerous path.
However, I am aware I am probably wasting my time.
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