I started hearing a voice, just one, when i was 13. It happened just after my first suicide attempt. Ive been diagnosed with depression and struggle with self injury
Now im 16 and i hear even more. There is one constant one, the others come and go.
I feel like im loosing control of my body
I dont know how to even begin to do something about it.
Ive been in and out of the mental health services but have never told them. Mainly coz they always seem so focused on the self harm that they dont ask about anything else.
I feel like evn more of a freak now. I dont know what to do. This is killing me.
You're not a freak. Lots of people with mental health problems (and some without) hear voices, and there can be all sorts of different reasons for it. Some are treatable with medication, others are helped more by psychotherapy, and some people are able to get on with normal lives without treatment for their voices. It generally depends upon their origin and how much they affect the person's life.
It sounds like you're very distressed by your experience of hearing voices, so I definitely think it'd be worth seeing your GP and explaining your difficulties to them, so they can find the right avenue of support for you. They won't criticise you and will be used to seeing people people having these sorts of experiences.
It's definitely better to speak to someone pretty soon, because in some cases (but by no means all) these experiences can get worse without the proper treatment.
Hearing things is much more common than people think and can be related to many different conditions or none at all. It would be a really good idea to talk to someone about what younare experiencing if it's causing you so much distress. Is there someone you can speak to? A professional?
Hope you're ok.
Wow wow wow, you are not a freak! So, please remember that! Does the voice have the same accent as you? Is it your own voice? Is it a character or just a voice? Does the voice tell you to do things or makes comments about things or other people? Can you control this voice? Can you control what it says and when it speaks?
Talk to your mental health services, one day you will be able to tell them and when you do,you will feel a lot better.
Try and explain it as best as you can to them. :) Good luck sweetie! x
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Its not my own voice, no. And the oldest voice is like a whole other person, like i have 2 brains and i just control the mouth part. They do tell me to do things, sometimes i have to lock myself in the bathroom so i dont let them hurt anyone. And no i cant control them at all.
Im meant to be seeing a councillor but theyre in the process of moving me to someone else, again, so thats gonna take about 3 months. I dont know if i can deal with this for another 3 months. Its too hard
Hang in there, ok? I know how tough it is to deal with voices you have no co ntrol over, especially when not receiving any treatment for them. If you do feel that you cannot deal with them for another three months, I would suggest getting in contact with your previous counselor to see if you could see them during the transition time.
And as before mentioned, explain your situation to them as best as you can.
Stay strong! ♥
Thanks for the support. I cant speak to my previous councillor, she is ill and had to quit working so its pretty serious whatever it is. But im having family therapy and am gonna ask to see a psychiatrist again. But ive got bad experiences with them so its gonna be tough.
Thanks again
As said before, you're not a freak. I just wanted to say that, in the meantime, you can manage to hold the voices at bay by using headphones or by focusing on something (book,movie...)
Have you tried writing down what they say ? By the way, what happens if you do not do as they say ?
Good luck and take care!
-- English is not my mother-tongue, so I apologize for any spelling/grammar mistake --
you are not a freak. Are the voices inside your head or external to your head? Like do they seem like disembodied thoughts or more like people who you can't see talking to/shouting at you?
It is tough to trust professionals after a bad experiance... but just try to remember that every professional is different, just because one was rubbish/damaging/whatever doesn't mean that they all will be
Thanks for all the support, it really means a lot to me.
Im not sure whether its inside or outside my head, and its like people i cant see are talking to me.
I had family therapy today and ended up getting rushed into see a psychiatrist, bearing in mind i see camhs (child and adolescent mental health services) this was a pretty big deal because normally you wait for months to get seen and i waited minutes. I was actually really impressed.
Ive been put on some medication, valium and risperidone. I dont know if it will work. Im terrified, but i have a bit more faith in the mental health services now. Things are really scary, voices are still there, but things are looking up.
